piEces of liFe

I want to be a doctor

2012-01-22T22:35:00.001Z

After 5 yrs in med school, this is the time. 3 more weeks to final exam. **emotionless**

our weekly OSCE practice

Semoga usaha ini diberkatiNya & semoga urusan ini dipermudahkanNya insyaAllah..

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Realiti semasa

2012-01-07T16:00:00.002Z

Salam wbt

Had a chance to attend the 'Divine Speech' - 3 days Quranic Arabic course by Bayyinah Institute last Christmas weekend in London. The course was delivered by Nouman Ali Khan. He's super famous weh! Such a great opportunity giving that he rarely delivers his course outside US. And...we bumped into him when we were having dinner at this one Indian restaurant. When he and his company were about to leave, we (about 10 of us) 'shyly' asked if it's ok to take picture and he replied, "My wife won't be too happy" (something like that). And we were like..."Awww..so sweet.." LOL such a girl!^^

Br Nouman Ali

Sisters area

Ok back to business. =P The course was undeniably amazing of course. Giving the political scenarios back home(or in any other parts of the world), I find this one really fascinating. It's truly true, nothing but the truth! In the quran, Allah revealed unfair tactics that people usually use to win an argument:

1) Using threat of force in debate. Eg [21:68] - Instead of debating about the important issue i.e worshipping other than Allah, force of threat is used i.e the disbelievers put a threat to burn Abraham.

2) Character assassination. Eg [21:36]

وَإِذَا رَءَاكَ ٱلَّذِينَ ڪَفَرُوٓاْ إِن يَتَّخِذُونَكَ إِلَّا هُزُوًا أَهَـٰذَا ٱلَّذِى يَذۡڪُرُ ءَالِهَتَكُمۡ وَهُم بِذِڪۡرِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ هُمۡ ڪَـٰفِرُونَ

And when those who disbelieve behold thee, they but choose thee out for mockery, (saying): Is this he who maketh mention of your gods? And they would deny all mention of the Beneficent (21:36)

[43:52] - Character assassination made by Pharaoh towards Musa AS.

3) Stirring up emotional crowd. Eg [20:63-64]

4) Making ones feel guilty and question their own modesty or loyalty. Eg [21:52,53]

5) Strategically distracting questions

It sounds very familiar indeed. These are what we will encounter everyday. No choice but to be wise. heh.

DISCLAIMER: i'm not an expert, this is purely one of the contents of the course. The course material can be found here.

Welcoming 2012 (^_^)

2011-12-31T19:43:00.001Z

It's 1 January 2012. It's my parents' birthday!! Wishing the both you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY & a blessed year ahead!

My smile is their priority.
My day and night are their worries.
My success is their ambition.
My life is their strength.
Never can I be able to return the same amount of tenderness. I pray to Allah;

رَّبِّ ٱرۡحَمۡهُمَا كَمَا رَبَّيَانِى صَغِيرً۬ا

My Lord! Have mercy on them both as they did care for me when I was little (17:24)

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Everyone seems to be into the new year mode so to welcome this 2013, I wish everyone (including myself) all the best in becoming a better person who does more good deeds. And...let the improvement comes sincerely from our heart. It doesn't matter if in the end we can only improve one little aspect of our lives, because that is still an improvement! After all, trying and striving is better than doing nothing and remains in the status quo. Some hearts can drastically change, some hearts need time (2:74). Most importantly, it has got to be sincerely because of Him. As outlined Imam Ghazali, there are 3 stages (or types?my bad!) of sincerity. (Choose from the three, be on the top ladder i.e no. 3 or be all three! =p )

1) of a servant - ones who do good or abandon evil to avoid punishment from Allah

2) of a merchant - ones who do good because they want rewards from Allah and Jannah

3) Mahbub - ones who do good because of their love for Allah

Start somewhere. And we'll get there :)

Allahu'alam.

NOTE: 45 hari lagi nak final exam!!!!! buleh gilo den! =S

Manusia mudah lupa..

2011-11-30T22:55:00.001Z

Forgive me Allah The Almighty

There is no other God but You alone. He is the Living God, Almighty and I turn(repent) to Thee O God.

Glory to Allah. No creature is able to overcome His kudrah(power), He is Allah who rule the throne alone. He rules the Throne and the heaven with ease for the sake of His glory, all the faces who bow and bow to him .

God is enough for me the most greatest. thers nothing in my heart except Allah. Nur Muhammad sallallah
There is nothing else other than what Allah has revealed.

There is no God but Allah. The king of the king. The Haq (the truth of reality) eternaly. Muhammad the Messenger of Allah, true and trusted the promises

Forgive me Allah. Please accept our repentance.

We repent to you Allah. We come back to you Allah. We regret for what we have done.

yellow is the new black

2011-07-10T23:48:00.006+01:00

Hari ini dalam sejarah: 090711! Wonder how will BERSIH 2.0 be depicted in Sejarah text books for the later generation. Anyhow, i jst cnt help but want to make a post bout bersih. Getting its updates online, watching youtube videos and photos from facebook left me in awe and heartbroken as well! Proud of the msian who're not selfish-to think tht they shud jst live quietly, feed and raise their family 'well'. Sad with how the police handled the crowd!

Below are some of the photos i lifted from bersih 2.0 official facebook page. enjoyed reading some of the funny comments as well!lol

the guy in yellow and those two in the uniform are probably of the same age. but whats different eh?

the guy is clearly armless,why need 4 cops handling him? n why need to be so brutal? jst cudnt understand!

even a kid was arrested!

those ppl understand the 1Malaysia concept more than the one who introduced it

thank you nenek!

forget bout the apco thing a bit. but the picture surely speaks for itself. whats different is jst tht on the right, they're frm different religion. but on the left, theyre both muslim!

last but not least, my favorite picture of all..jeng..jeng..jeng..

if only there's bumblebee.....hihi^^

i think if it's not because of the useless roadblock, water canon and tear gas, the rally would have been very peaceful!!

P.S; baru rally nak mintak fair election je pun..bukan mintak duit or nak topple mereka!pelik..pelik

Women of Faith debate

2011-03-08T21:06:00.015Z

Well it's not really a debate actually but more of a sharing sessions if u like.

Salam wbt,

Have been abandoning this blog for ages. A very bad habit of mine. Ok lupakan.

Well, apparently today is an International Women's Day and the Women's Network, a society under Notts uni student union organised a little forum featuring women from different faiths namely Christianity, Judaism, Islam and Sikh.

The forum started with each panelists giving a brief overview on how their faiths affect them and their daily lives. The first panel is a Christian, and i like how she reverse the question to; How can it (her faith) not affect me. Which i really really agree. Her faith gives her confidence and the contentment in life. She went on saying that she couldn't understand how can some people work their head off just to be rich coz she knows there's more to life than just earning big money. There's a purpose of why we're all here. And in term of confidence, she expressed that as long as she believes that God loves her and wants her to be there (on earth) for a reason..she doesn't have to crack her head off browsing through her wardrobe finding the shortest minis possible to impress others etc. Similarly with the other two panelists from Sikh and Judaism. The Jewish lady covers part of her hair(signs that they're married), and the Sikh lady wears turban. And they promote modest wear as well. And that they don't mind being 'different' from others or not engage in 'clubbing' or the social events alike. It's hard for them as well to say no to their friends but as they said, "I know what I'm doing, coz it(clubbing) doesn't bring me close to God so why should i do it?"

In my head i thought..."WOW, that is soo Islamic.." Of course, there are differences, but why fight over the differences when you can share the common interest?

So, the impression i get from the forum is, all faiths promote good.

How can faith not affect us?Right?This is how i view it;

Purpose of life

As we already know, as Muslim, our purpose of life is for Allah to be pleased with us and bless us with the ultimate aim of Jannah i.e heaven. He will be pleased with us and bless us if we're close to Him by doing good, and prevent evil. Having all the blessings in life like good education, wealth, health, jobs and family are all part of the means to reach the ultimate aim. We do things coz Allah asked us to do so, and we don't do things coz He asked us to avoid them. And that everything in this whole universe comes from Him and is His. We know we go off the track when:

1. We do things to impress and please other people instead of Him.

2. We study solely to get good grades so we can get better jobs

3. We dress to impress rather than to cover ourselves as He asked us to do so.

4. We love our money, our partner and our family more than we love Him and His messenger SAW.

5. We're more worried of other people's perception than whether He's pleased with us or not.

6. We think we're so happy and blissful coz we've got everything in life when we don't know if He'll be pleased enough with us to give that happiness again in the hereafter.

7. We think that we have a high status in the society coz we're more educated and forgetting that we're just His little servant.

8. We're proud of our achievements when it's Him who gives us that.

The list goes on and on..but at least we get the picture and insyaAllah we can relate it to ourselves.

Way of life

Islam, is our Deen. Which means,it is our way of life. So since it's part of us and our way of life, how can we separate our day to day living with our faith. It's all interlinked and connected. We cannot pray 5 times a/day and go clubbing as well. It doesn't seem right, does it? Since we have that purpose of life, so the way we live our lives has got to be towards realising that aim as well, isn't it so?

Natural disposition

Having a faith is all part of our natural instinct or disposition i believe. This reminds me of a friend of mine who said that her friend who's an Atheist also believe in at least 'something' though not God. Coz as a human being, i believe at least somewhere deep down in our heart/at the back of our mind know that we're belong to something 'superior'. We want something/somewhere to turn to, to refer to or to look up for. And that's exactly how Islam nurture us. And i like the close relationships one can have with their creator without any barrier i.e we can directly communicate to Him. We want to cry when we're sad and we want to whine and complain when we're not satisfied. So cry in remembrance of Him and complain to Him as He is the best listener and understands better. If we're stuck between two roads, ask Him the guidance and He'll show us the right path. If we want something very badly, ask Him and He'll grant us our prayers. And not to forget when we're so happy we want to share it with someone, we turn to Him and say Alhamdulillah. =D

No Compulsion

I'm very much against forcing others to do things they don't want to. Because good deeds will only be valuable in the eyes of Allah if we do it sincerely i.e without being forced into it. However, it's not the same as educating others and give good example with the hope of influencing them to do good as well. (And educating is also not the same as 'imposing' yah). This is because to be sincere, one gotta know what and why they're doing certain things. So if we just force others to do things that are alien to them, it is just meaningless to them. However on the other hand, refusing doing good deeds jst coz we're asked to do so by others or coz it's a rule is also not very good i think. Coz sometime, we might not understand why we're doing it initially but as we develop the good habit of doing good deeds, not only the unintentional good deeds are rewarded, but as we grow maturer, hopefully we might pick up some knowledge and began to understand the reasons behind it. (if u get what i mean?) So, know why we do things and also know why we refuse to do things. May Allah guide us along the way insyaAllah.

i am very very very lacking in every way, above is just what i feel and believe.

Allahua'alam.

PS; macam mana agaknye nk elak comment2 random org nk laku-kan products/websites diorg frm terrorizing my space?heh.

judgemental

2010-10-29T23:47:00.008+01:00

No matter how smart/clever we are, we still have got no right to judge others.

Each and every one of us is different. In our own way. We're different because of different background, n different upbringing...everything is different! Do not think that the world must revolve around us just because we get a good education and come from a decent background. Even if we think someone does not conform to our idea of being a 'good' person, we still have got no right to judge him/her.

Don't let all of our (few) good deeds all this while go to waste just because we cannot control the little evil in our head. Yes we may have the advantage of looking 'good' in the eyes of many. And some might have few shortcomings that are like 'taboo' in our little world. But NO ONE is superior than the other. Making a change is part of our responsibility but in the process, do not judge. When we judge others, it means we're looking down on them, showing arrogance and superiority. And it can translate in our attitude and conversation. Seriously, it's not a nice sight. Coz it hurts.

Just a thought..because we might not realize it.

Allah knows best.

aidilfitri di perantauan

2010-09-17T18:28:00.010+01:00

hopefully it's still not too late for me to wish everyone Eid Mubarak!

it's my 2nd time celebrating raya in the UK, Alhamdulillah dpt solat aidilfitri di pagi raya, dan mencuti-kan diri drpd hospital for the rest of the day.

Alhamdulillah we managed to hold a grandiose open house this yr on the very first day of raya namely the Open house version 43.36. A great joined effort between the gorgeous of 43 city rd and the jingles of 36 beeston rd. Thanks to everyone for everything. Marvellous foods, happening atmosphere, fantastic crowd..semua cukup!hehe!재미 있어요!

the so called 'satay tour'

soto

wut's with the fuss back home?kitorg happy je.

mase peak time, lantai pun x nampak!

dgn posgrads n the kids

the boys in the backyard

the host

the doctors

more food. satay n rendang

desserts

to break, or to hide

2010-08-25T20:09:00.016+01:00

i like what i'm doing now. i like what i study now. not merely because it's a scientific medicine. but also coz it involves me working with people from all walks of life with all sorts of different stories and emotions. last week was my labour week. the short-lasting adrenaline rush during C-section was craaazy! the climax is when having to pull and press the tummy, but as soon as the baby pops out and cries, it's such a beautiful anti-climax. same goes to normal birth or instrumental assisted delivery. with the lady screaming in pain, and the worried husband sweating like a pig, wut do u do as a med student?haha initially i just literally froze there for a couple of seconds. it's not like i have experienced labour to give any tips. but yea u don't have to experience it first to empathize, so in a malu-malu kucing tone, i just copied the midwife, "u've done very well!" "just a little bit more, push!push!" (^_^) but when i really thought they've done really well, the midwife said it's the diarmorphine. heheh.

And now i'm on my gynae-oncology week. just imagine the intensity of the emotion inside the clinic every time a patient walks in. if it goes, "it's a cyst measuring 11x12x10cm, we can book u in for surgery to remove the ovary," then it's good news. at least. and if it goes, "it's a cancer of the womb. stage 1a, which confined to the inside of the womb. since u've had your menopause, the best option is to do hysterectomy with the removal of both of the tubes and ovaries (bilateral salpingo-oopherectomy or BSO)," it's worrying, but still quite fortunate. But what if, "we can no longer do surgery. as u know, it'll quickly come back. so the plan now is to give u radiotherapy for about 2 weeks. it's supposed to reduce the cancer cells a bit and shall give some EXTRA TIME. no cure to it. and we'll give u the cream for the infections." feel like the the whole sky just collapsed on u? yes that's exactly how i think this one lovely couple who's in their 80s felt when the oncologist explained the treatment plan. they've been married for 65 years. the wife is 88 years old. has an advanced basal cell carcinoma of the vulva that has spread to both of her groins. she has had a vulvectomy in the past. but the invincible cancerous cells came back and become even more aggressive. the treatment now is just palliative. looking at the lesions in her groins, u would expect her to be in great pain. coz the affected area got infected as well. but she looked totally fine!! and very independent!! she's more troubled by her back pain rather than the sticky lesions in her groins. she put up with it by placing some tissues at the affected area and wear pads. as said by the nurse there, "These elderlies, they just put up with things, they don't wanna be a burden to others," Ya Allah, my heart sank. And the husband, he looked even better!with an obvious effort to hold his tears, he asked the oncologist what did he mean by 'extra time'. and the wife quickly stopped him saying she didn't want to know about it. she just wanted to go with the treatment and take it as it comes along. the world felt so small, i felt so close to them...

sekadar gambar hiasan: colposcopy clinic

p.s; some says childbirth is gory and hence dnt dare to look at it. no i think we have to see it, so we know dari mana kita datang and remind diri kita about who we really are - manusia hina yg dijadikan drpd tanah liat kering dan lumpur hitam (15:26). and remember, there lies the greatness of Allah to those who think. =)

Ramadhan

2010-08-11T10:59:00.010+01:00

Ramadhan Kareem!

Selamat berpuasa kepada semua Muslimin dan Muslimat.

First day of puasa, and im in Lincoln. Very much like back in 2007. grrr. but owh well, it doesnt matter. so let's start off our Ramadhan with a wake up call:

AWAKEN - by Maher Zain

dignity

2010-03-04T21:12:00.005Z

When doing clinical examination on patient, doctors/med students are asked to cover the patient's private part as much as we could, or at least performing the exam. behind the curtain to maintain patient's DIGNITY..

But for those who simply dress skimpily wearing revealing clothes etc in public w/out even being asked to..where goes the DIGNITY then?

hurmm..how irony..

mari POP-ing

2010-03-02T21:34:00.004Z

POP stands for: PEACE OF PALESTINE

POP terbahagi kepada tiga bahagian utama iaitu:

1) Turki : Antara Fateh dan Kamal - Perkongsian dan pendedahan mengenai kesan kejatuhan Khalifah Turki Uthmaniyyah terhadap penubuhan Negara Haram Israel.

2) Talk Peace of Palestine - Input berkaitan Palestine dan memahami tanggungjawab terhadap Palestine atas dasar Islam atau atas dasar kemanusiaan dan mula memainkan peranan masing-masing dengan bersungguh-sungguh setiap masa,tidak kira sama ada, terdapat isu besar yang muncul atau tidak.

3) DSLR : Bukan sekadar foto - Pendedahan mengenai penggunaan Camera DSLR supaya dapat menghasilkan gambar yang bermutu tinggi dan bukan sekadar foto biasa

Daftar segera!!!(^_^)

Dan jumpa di saaaanaaaaaaaaa...=)

in a relationship

2010-02-11T14:21:00.021Z

..no that's not an announcement.

ok there is this situation;

There's two birdies who are so in love. They've been together for quite some time. And of course, the two want to take their relationship into the next level. But some people around them aren't too comfortable about that. Not their usual circle of friends, but some more important people. First, because they're not yet convinced if the guy is 'ready' enough to hold the responsibility in term of of course, mental preparation, money wise and few other stuffs. And secondly, coz the girl is yet to prove that she is the 'right' one in term of manners, upbringing etc..And yes despite that 'perkara baik tak perlu dihalang dan dilengahkan', (But you see, that's another story because marriage isn't jst about making wut's haram to us halal..jst read here) I can see the rationale behind the two reasons why some people around them aren't too keen in pursuing their good intention i.e. tying up the knot. Hence, they kind of ask me if i knw anyone more decent for the guy..(ewah2 banyak la, utk diri sendiri pn x lepas lg!-->jst my monolouge!haha) so i said, "owh mmg ramai ppl around me here yg mmg calon mithali tiptop!"

Tidakkah lelaki yg baik itu utk perempuan yg baik?..however it is understandable tht everybody's lacking, and so needs hand to lead for the better or at least walk together towards it.

But as a girl right, if we really is a good one, wud we be so daring as to do something as if we disregard the important ppl around the guy we're in the relationship with?is it really good enough if u can "control" the guy like he's all yours? And even if he is the boyfriend cum husband-soon-to-be-jst-dnt-knw-when, it jst doesn't make sense to me to act like his wife already..like the attitude, 'buka aurat dgn boyfren seniri je pun'..usually happens when a person is originally covered, but when skyping with the boyfren, then it's "ok" to not wearing hijab since "he's my boyfren n we'll get married soon anyway". or like, "i tak pegang lelaki lain, pegang boyfren sendiri je"....hurm, think again.

If that is so, wut is the purpose of wearing hijab in the everyday lives then?Where is the sincerity?One often says that "I sincerely love him (the boyfren)"..erm for the sake of whom? Then pray to Allah at night asking for His blessings in the relationship or semoga jodoh dgn si dia dipermudahkan. After throwing all those lines as stated above, wut do we expect, right? Note that the delicate sincerity is achieved if and only if the deeds are done for the sake of Allah and in accordance with His command and the sunnah. Fine, Allah is All Merciful and the All plentiful Giver, He may grant us our prayers but be cocky not, that's another test, coz He either grants us our prayer because we really deserve it or to see if we'd 'hanyut' dgn keindahan dan kenikmatan dunia. (Semoga dijauhkan)

We often think that Allah only tests us with hardships. And us who live happily with the ppl we love around us, getting good results every time, haha hihi huhu here and there all the time are examted from the test..please, that's not true. Allah also tests us with ease like good health, money and the things or persons we love. And unsurprisingly, we often fails in these tests because when Allah gives us these blessings we often turn them into false idol of the heart. So now do we worship the source of the blessings or the blessing itself? That blessings cn be taken away frm us ANYTIME either because we fail the test, or as another test. so what makes us so confident doing n saying stuffs as mentioned in the earlier paragraph? Think again. everybody makes mistake but let's reflect and repent. So let's be wise in handling our tests. wallahu 'alam.

[And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts): verily in that are signs for those who reflect.] (Ar-Rum 30:21)

Also check Al-Kahfi verse 46.

p.s; I use the word "we" and not "u" which means, I definitely dedicate this piece of reminder to my self as well as to whoever reading.

innocence

2010-02-06T18:10:00.006Z

heh..still can't get over this skema + jujur conversation;

"ayah, ammar ade buat kesalahan" ----> a sentence tht made my mom anxious the whole night n cudn't sleep tight.

"kesalahan apenya?"

1 day later..

"ammar hilang duit 4o ringgit,"

sensasi atau disensasikan?

2010-01-16T14:43:00.015Z

[religious issue (???) ----> linguistic issue ----> races (or racist??) issue ] @ political agenda (??)

Let's ask our selves,

We're a Muslim first or a Malay first?

Beliefs come first or verbal utterance comes first?

..jawab dalam hati sudeyy. Yang penting, be a rational Muslim/Malay..not just another emotional Malay/Muslim.

"Ikutkan hati mati, ikutkan nafsu lesu, ikutkan Al-Quran menuju kejayaan"..random pulak eh!

..dan ikutkan malas, dissertation tak siap!hehehe(^_^)

andalucia parte III - Sevilla

2010-01-02T12:30:00.036Z

**it's snowing outside..hati senangggg..haha

k our next destination was Sevilla. It was jst a 2++ hrs drive frm Malaga. Our stay in Sevilla was indeed one of the best!owh but here ws when the drama began. NOTE: dnt travel like us, main redah je..with no map at hand..depend solely on our gps..so sang gps ni pn bawakla ke our hostel..n to our surprise..the street was very narrow!n in fact too narrow for a car!no wonder bila kitorg masuk diz one paved street, no one gave us a weird look since it ws very normal there.

then kitorg jumpe diz one free space in front of a building..so we jst happily parked our car there la since it was super duper difficult to find a decent parking space near our hostel. dahla tuh,it was raining very heavily too!pastu we checked-in at Seville Inn Backpackers..met a group of msian students frm Cardiff there. Then at night, we watched a short performance of the famousFlamenco dance. after the show, instead of went straight to hostel, we wanted to get some food frm our car..terkejutnyer bila tgk the side mirror on the driver's side was severely broken n the there's a long scratch on the side too. adding to the shock, ade ticket saman worth 120euro skali!

Flamenco dance

our hostel area

Gitu-gini after calling the 24hr service, the tow truck came at around 12-ish midnight to get our car..communicate mcm ayam ngn itik dgn pakcik tu, when we showed him the ticket we was jst like ahhh wutever *sambil membuang ticket tu ke tanah*..apakah?but we're happy!haha!

k enough of tht, and now a lil bit of sevilla history. The legends tell tht Seville was founded by Hercules. tp x taula kan..After the conquest by the Moors, its Roman name, Hispalis was changed to Arabic name, Isbilya. Now Sevilla is one of the 4 largest cities kat spain if im not msitaken..correct me if im wrong. And was the second most important after Cordova during Moorish empire. Lepas kejatuhan Caliphate system, Andalusia was divided into almost 30 smaller kingdoms called Taifas or so called 'Party Kings' (muluk al tawa'if). The only strong state was tht of Sevilla founded by former governor Mohammed ibn-Abbad. During his legacy, Sevilla gained supremacy over other kingdoms including Cordoba.

All of these Party Kings were unable to work together due to complex political games n wars, so it really was a party for the Christians. So they had to pay heavy tribute to Christians kings present during tht time (Alfonso IV). By this time, an appeal was made to Almoravids (Al-Murabitun-the warrior monk) by some Taifas rulers(including Sevilla and Granada). Almoravids dynasty was of a Berber origin n very successful in establishing a kingdom in Maghreb (Morocco now). Almoravids ni was not very popular among the ppl coz they're said to be religious intolerence.

Then Almohads (Al-Muwahhidun-upholders of divine unity) from Cadiz pula conquered Al-Andalus and made Seville the capital of its kingdom. Almohads who were said to be somewhat more tolerant also restored the prosperity and relative peace of the region. Masa ni la terbinanya central mosque yg kini dah jd the largest gothic cathedral. Although the mosque was no more, an idea of its grandeur however can be seen frm the surviving spacious orange trees courtyard and its minaret with decorative brickwork. Minaret ni menariknya, has got no stairs..but shallow ramps! bkn sbb muezzin dlu malas naek tangge, tp bayangkn nk azan 5 kali sehari..naik menunggang kuda lg cpt kan..so sbb tu lg practical buat ramps je, xke bijak tu? n orange trees courtyard mmg very typical kat mosques in andalus, pastu ade small aqueducts utk salur air for the trees..pastu in the middle ade fountain 4 ablution..so mase ambil wudhu' tu mmg wangi jer..

the gothic cathedral n on the right is La Giralda tower or the minaret

tomb of Christopher Columbus inside the cathedral..he was unfortunately in exile after his death so his bones were everywhere..n the only thing in the tomb is his finger.

view of Seville city from La Giralda

Orange trees courtyard

La torre del oro (The Golden Tower) - built by The Moors at the banks of Guadalquivir river as a watchtower. Takes its name frm the gold tiles tht covered its exterior wall.

Sevilla was important dlu as a pit stop for any kapal yg nak gi Cordoba..they had to stop in Sevilla first (by the watchtower if im not mistaken) lebih kurang mcm "toll" laa..

Then after awhile, Almohad power started to decline and was captured by Alfonso's son, Fernando III. After their conquest that they demolished the mosque and built the cathedral, n also added a huge statue of Faith as a weathervane on top of the minaret. The name of the weathervane is La Giraldillo (now given the name of the tower as a whole)-it's still turning with the winds though as said by our tour guide.

.....to be continued

2009 recap

2010-01-01T10:35:00.010Z

dpt idea wut recap frm nad, cam best jek..haha

here's the wrap-up of my 2009;

January

-A cold winter, struggled with examss

-GAZA kena serang

February

- experienced the first snow in Notts!

March

-Went to Czech Republic during easter break, had fun bertandang di umh che nad n ila

-Started Cambodia Relief Mission preparation like cake sales for fund raising

-Quite an eventful month kat notts jgak with all sorts of activities and events like Thai night, Msian night, charity dinners etc

April

-gi trip to cornwall yg best!

-my bday!tq asma anis aisyah irina maryam 4 the surprise^^

May

- the same old struggle utk exams

June & July

-Summer holidayy with frens n family!!wonderfuuul!

-Transit n melancong-lancong skejap kat Dubai..great experience..thnx to kak linda (su's cousin in law..kot) for the superb hospitality

- Went for the legendary Cambodia Relief Mission 09...really recommend this to all juniors..amazing experience

-First time sunatkan budak!thrilled!

-Cuti2 msia dgn my besties terchenta

-Visited our highskool..met cikgu2 lama..kenangan terindah lah!

August

-hampir heart attack sbb dpt brita tergempar all at once : sorang cousin accident, another cousin masuk hosp sbb coronary artery blockage, my little bro fractured his ankle, nenek sedara pula nazak di hosp

September

-Nothing much, dgn berat hatinya pulang ke Nottingham

- kehilangan ....

October & September

-Start BMedSci labwork..

December

-Another cold winter

- Early snow this time around kat notts but i missed it coz was in Andalusia for my winter holiday

btw today 1st of january is my parents' birthday..생일 축하합니다! and...모두를 당신을 감사하십시오!

hari bertinju ke berkotak?

2009-12-28T00:03:00.006Z

w'pun my boxing day diz yr sehari lmbt, tp tetap mantops..kuar frm sunrise smpai ke sunset!best jgk derby, relax je unlike london yg packed mcm sardine..mayb coz it's 27 pn..so less crowded..bole bernafas n shopping in our own sweet time..

nk tercabut kpale lutut rase..since arini sunday, kdai sume commence bisnes lmbt i.e 10/11am n tutop awl i.e 430pm...malas2 la org uk ni bekerja..

tp bagos juge, kalo x ntah bape ria lg melayang..hehe

andalucia parte II - Malaga

2009-12-26T14:51:00.018Z

We arrived at Malaga airport at around 7pm local hr..then went to pick up our car frm Auriga crown car rental company. They gav us a black volks wagen Polo edition. Initially ours ws something else (cudn't remember wut's the maker) but lps kitorg pujuk2 sket pakcik tuh die cair n bersempena dgn Krismas die pwn kasi r kete lawa tuh..hehehe Then we headed straight to hostel..tambah sesat2 dlm bandar 4 few hrs, Alhamdulillah we finally reached the desired destination. Sebernarnye plan nk tgk Flamenco dance tht night tp sesat lg dlm city so blk mkn maggi je laa^^

The only places we visited in Malaga were the Moorish Alcazaba, its beach, Malagueta and Picasso Museum. Picasso ni katenya was originally frm Spain tp stayed there until he ws 14 yrs old je kot pastu went abroad n never came back. Tp well, ada la jgk darah spain so they're still very proud of him. Under the Moors, Malaga ws considered to be one of the most important port. However King Fernando thoroughly ruined everything after his conquest, and after the full expulsion of the Moors, only very little of its ancient distinctions like gates remained. The terrace gardens we saw today ws frm the restoration done by the gov. Near the Alcazaba ade jgk the half-ruined Roman theatre tp tahla nmpk sign tp x nmpk pintu masok.

the fortress

garden in Alcazaba

a very fine view of Malaga city frm the top of Alcazaba

Picasso museum..utk org yg buta seni like me, agk bosan r

the man-made beach

When the Moors habitated Malaga, apart frm expanding territories, they also concentrated on expanding town on the existing Roman n Visigoth structures. Masa ni la Malaga improved their cultural, constructions n commercial activities. Tp in 11th century, adala rivalry between Moorish nobles families kat Andalusia ni...mcm2 kan? Then Malaga jatoh kpd one of the kingdom Taifas. Taifa ni means kawasan2 kecil coz masa tu Andalusia ni ws no longer under pemerintahan khalifah yg berpusat di Cordoba (ni citer nntilah) so they r divided into smaller taifas with local ruling.

Lps tu berlaku lg mcm2 kisah la which i'll elaborate more on later. The last taifa remained was Granada so Malaga stayed under different Moorish Caliphs in Malaga. Masa ni diorg bina 2 important monuments in Malaga iaitu Alcazaba n the palace, Gibralfaro.(tp kitorg x pegi pwn castle tu).

After Christians defeated the Moors, the Muslim town changed drastically into a Christian town. Mana2 Muslim families who participated on the defense were killed, exposed or sold as slaves.

Sedih kan.....=(

andalucia parte I

2009-12-26T09:24:00.007Z

Modern Andalucia

jst got bck frm my winter holiday..adela jgk sket drama yg berlaku tp pape pwn tetap besttt!!we stayed in Andalusia for 8 days..2 nights in each stops i.e malaga, seville, cordoba and granada. A brief history of Andalusia;

The Andalusia name is referring to the Arabic Al-Andalus-center power of medieval Muslim-dominated peninsular Iberia. Muslims in Andalusia are referred as the Moors. Prior to this, which ws around the 4th century, Spain was under the Roman kingdom and had became a Christian country. There's quite a few architectural ruins with Roman influence tht we cn still see today like the famous Roman columns which ws also being re-used by the Moors later during their reign. After the collapse of the empire, Spain ws eventually fell under the Visigoth (Germanic). Well, there wasn't much progress in terms of civilization during the Visigothic yrs. They were said to be illiterate, selfish and bloody-minded.

Then aorund 711, Muslim troops under Tariq ibn Ziyad came to Spain through Gibraltar and with the assistance of Visigoths opposed to King Roderick, defeated the Visigoth kingdom in which King Roderic (the Visigothic ruler during tht time) ws killed. And it is said that the name of Gibraltar yg berbukit-bukau tu was given after his name i.e Jabbal al-Tariq. Certain sources also said tht Tariq who ws a Berber ws probably originally a Visigoth. The famous Tariq's address to his fellow armies which i quite like;

"Wahai saudara-saudaraku, lautan ada di belakang kalian, musuh ada di depan kalian, ke manakah kalian akan lari? Demi Allah, yang kalian miliki hanyalah kejujuran dan kesabaran. Ketahuilah bahawa di pulau ini kalian lebih terlantar dari pada anak yatim yang ada di lingkungan orang-orang hina. Musuh kalian telah menyambut dengan pasukan dan senjata mereka. Kekuatan mereka sangat besar, sementara kalian tanpa perlindungan selain pedang-pedang kalian, tanpa kekuatan selain dari barang-barang yang kalian rampas dari tangan musuh kalian. Seandainya pada hari-hari ini kalian masih tetap sengsara seperti ini, tanpa adanya perubahan yang berkesan, nescaya nama baik kalian akan hilang, rasa gentar yang ada pada hati musuh akan berganti menjadi berani kepada kalian. Oleh kerana itu, pertahankanlah jiwa kalian.”

The success of Tariq ibn Ziyad's troop in defeating the Visigoths marked the reign of Umayyad in Andalus. Umayyad dynasty based in Damascus sent in Governor to rule Andalus; the first one ws Musa ibn Nusayr (or 2nd after Tariq as said by some source) and the last one, Yusuf ibn Abd Rahman al-Fihri. Throughout, Muslim conquest had expanded to Cordova, Toledo etc. After Tariq was called back to Damascus by the Umayyad Caliph, Al-Walid b. Malik, he never had return bck to Europe n spent the rest of his life there in Damascus.

During the ruling under Umayyad Gavernor, so many interferences frm both internal n external factors had happened. Gangguan dalaman 4 example in between pembesar2 elite, the frictions were due to differences in opinion, ethnic n cultural background. Externally frm the remaining Muslims' enemy in Spain tht had never wnted to acknowledge Islamic ruling. Nonetheless, pemerintahan Islam terus utuh n berkembang in the entire Europe.

At around 750, Umayyad ws taken over by the Abbasids tht took control of the great Arab empire. Leaving Damascus, the capital of Abbasid empire was in Baghdad. Able to escape frm the Abbasid, Abd Rahman Ad-Dakhil travelled to Andalus and was self-proclaimed as the emir of Andalus continuing the reign of Umayyad independent of Abbasid influence in Bagdad. Abd Rahman I kingdom yg berpusat di Cordoba continued the caliphate system in governing Andalus.

......to be continued ^^

HoW beautifuL!!

2009-11-19T19:51:00.010Z

"Most things in life are a double-edged sword"...while they are in favour at one dose or under one condition, they may be disfavour at another dose or under another condition. Sounds very familiar kan??

And this is analogous to what Alexander Fleming (discoverer of penicillin) once said - if the soil causes the disease; the cure to the disease also lies in it. For example, while Tumour Necrosis Factor (TNF) mediates rheumatoid arthritis, the soluble form of its receptor is used for its treatment. And similarly, while Helper T cell 1 (Th-1) secreted cytokines tht mediate inflammation, Th-2 produces cytokines that supress it. Vice versa, Th-2 secreted cytokines tht leads to allergy, Th-1 produced cytokines tht supress it.

Isn't this perfect arrangement just soo beautiful Subhanallah!Macam org bercinta, dialah racun dialah penawar!heheh!Setiap yg berlaku ada hikmah nya, tak gitu. Sesungguhnya bersama kesusahan ada kesenangan(Al-Insyirah).

Still on the same double-edged sword principle; acute inflammation is protective to our body but once it lasts too long or becomes chronic, it may lead to diseases like cancer for instance. So on tht note, don't u think that is why we're strongly advised to live in moderation? For example; at one end, salt is needed to maintain the electrolytes balance in our body but if we consume too much salty stuff, there comes hypertension etc. Likewise, gastric acid is needed to help maintains the environment in our stomach suitable for digestion and protective against bacterial infection but kalau kita x jaga like makan x tentu masa n all, tht same acid jugak cn cause gastritis, hakis our stomach lining causing ulceration and in long term may lead to cancer.

Cantik dah susunan Tuhan tu kan!(^_^)

Tu je nk share!=p

how to enjoy labwork for dummies

2009-10-11T20:52:00.009+01:00

like me..eheh =p

n i dnt hav the answer either. so those who hav the manual pls do let me knw.

hurm..labwork 4 me is not tht bad..only if i dnt hav to do it all yr round la kn..coz kt lab, ppl jst do their own job..not talking to each othr pn..n wht more, im quite lampi when it comes to numbers. ..hence i neeeed that huge GDC of mine. owh yes the dilution calculation etc..my first time doing the 'real' situation calculation, i was like..blank. completely. i wonder wut ive been doing with my 7 IB chem n A1 spm chem.cikgu mintak maaf..^^

labwork=cooking kah?i dont think so..w'pun u hav the recipe for cooking n protocol manual for labwork, it's jst not the same kot. sbb when cooking, we cn campak2 stuff n jst make it edible. tp labwork, if we miss one thing or put the wrong solution, the cells die n project pn entah ke mana. so mayb baking suits better la.haha.

cambodia siri 1 - phnom penh

2009-09-13T17:30:00.026+01:00

lagi about my cambodia relief mission 09. jst some pics utk sum up our activities there.

sessi memunggah brg kat Phnom Penh airport..kotak2 yg berlambak2..

at LCCT..thnx to AirAsia for giving us an extra baggage allowance

1. Had a meeting with IMAC ppl..i salute org2 besar sana yg sanggup turun pandang n aktif with this kind of program mcm their under secretary of state (eg mamanda menteri :p) n even the secretary of state.. they do mobile clinics almost every week k!n we're really grateful for their first class hospitality..kitorg je yg berlemak :p n wut's more interesting, they cn join imac no matter course ape pn diorg amek kt uni..as long as they're a muslim student. bayangkn, on weekdays, they study engineering, agriculture or wutever n in the weekend, they perform circumcision n do dispensary!

2. We got to also visit an orphanage centre tht's fully funded by UAE. We had lunch there, played some games with the children and also did a dental care demonstration. First time buat activity guna translator..susah jugak rupenya..n coz of the language barrier, we didn't get to interact tht much with the kids. Even so, hand signals mmg sgtlah membantu cam "piece", "good", "yay*clap clap*" etc

colouring contest

distributing ubat dan berus gigi. thanks to ubt gigi Mu'min for sponsoring us. excited btol!

3. apart frm the above 2, of coz keje kitorg melancong la kt phnom penh tu.. jalan2..mkn2..hehe

naek tuktuk! =p

cruising kat sg mekong =)

a short yet insightful session with Mufti Cambodia

melawat penjara regim Polpot

not to forget, buying medicines at the Olympic market

.......to be continued

never do that, chepal..

2009-09-01T22:41:00.010+01:00

i think ive lost interest in blogging..actually there's alot tht i wanted to share about my stay in cambodia but typing nowadays has became so impossible for me..too lazy for tht u see. maybe later la when the weather is clear.(slang kedah sket)..tp yg ni i hav to write jugaklah..i jst cnt contain it anymore tht i wnt 2 shout it out loud if i may. saje nk over je..haha

k jst dnt let anything 2 disturb my train of thoughts for a while..

leaving, walk away n disappear, are these wut legs r for? if u have never been left behind, jst dnt do tht to others. please i beg u. someone u sincerely treasure for years suddenly being invisible and so out of reach..they r around but u cnt reach them..u jst cnt. they jst dnt wnt u anymore.
n u wonder..
"have i said/done something wrong or hurtful?"
"am i tht despicable to be forgotten jst like this?"
"am i tht insignificant?"
wut even more confusing..u jst dnt knw how u're feeling..angry?upset?betrayed?jst which one already?

well people do change. but walking away by leaving others in agony, is tht even comprehensible n sensible?or mayb it's too selfish to ask others to befriend/stay with u..or mayb it's jst one's greed to keep the old memories intact. who knows.

but still, whoever wasting their time reading this, pls..never do that. coz whichever way i see it, my conscience still think tht it jst isn't a right thing to do. no matter how much u've fallen out of love with the person or hate them..jst dnt abandon. there must be a better way. n i personally think, it's ok or less hurtful to let the time decides rather thn we ourselves purposely walk on tht person. eh chop, but isn't tht wut ppl do to avoid someone they dnt like i.e slowly distancing themselves frm the othr end n jst let the time passes in the hope tht they never were to cross each other's path ever again?i dnt knw coz i've never done tht to anyone b4.insyaAllah la.

Allah lebih mengetahui.
one last piece of advise: treasure those who treasure u. do good to the person nxt to u..coz u never knw when they'll leave u. (haha.isnt tht a bit scary in some ways?) but if tht person really gonna leave u in an inappropriate way, will u regret being good to them then?i dnt think i wud. coz sincerity never change.

anggaplah cerita jiran sy ini stu pengajaran berguna. haha.
selamat menjalani ibadah puasa..change to the better, Ramadhan is the gateway.

btw chepal is korean..it means please (like an i-beg-u kind of please)hehehee..^^

combo 3+1

2009-08-14T03:29:00.006+01:00

Elok je kenyang2 dinner, dikejutkn pulak with the shocking combo news by my mom.
1- My cousin got into an accident so now hospitalised with fractures on both arms.
2- Another cousin got hospitalised due 2 heart prob - arrythmia katenya. The angiogram showed a blockage in some of the coronary arteries.
3- My youngest bro kena simen pulak kaki...close fracture kat left ankle.
Then we jst knew tht my atuk's sistr is also hospitalised..

Astaghfirullahal'azim..

There's always some kind of ujian for my family n relatives when it's close to Ramadhan..this is wut i observed frm the previous yrs lah..coincidence?

mengai pidong, maedong makroup

2009-08-06T09:32:00.022+01:00

translation: ambil 2 kali sehari, 2 biji setiap kali.

hehe..that's Khmer language. the longest sentence ive learnt during my 2 weeks stay in Cambodia. sorry if the meaning lari sket or the spelling isnt right.

Throughout the relief mission, there wasn't any moment tht i regret my decision to join the team. the new things ive learnt, the people i got to know there..everything is precious n priceless! i'll write more on the mission once i receive the pics frm the boss. but wht i wanna share now is about this one cambodian fren we know. seeing him, i would never have imagined he's the person tht needs to go against his family will for his idea to change the lives of his village hence pursuing medicine in USS in Phnom Penh and now in his 5th yr.(or is it 6th?cudnt remember)..btw medical course in Cambodia is 8 yrs.

He came from a rural village in one of the provinces in Cambodia where the main source of living is fishing. For the people around him, helping their parents to earn a living was considered to be more "useful" than studying. Most of the kids settled only til elementary. So when no one in the village likes to study, when the school is 20 km away, when parents and grandparents oppose, and when living is hard, he, Ghazali (or Rosaly) Yakop determined. (or in Khmer, Kop Roly). Even when he had to cycle 20 km to high skool, and also helped his father go fishing in the weekend, he never waver from his idea of the importance of education. He was then awarded a scholarship by the gov and became the first from his village to further in university. Hesitantly, he chose to become a doctor over a teacher.

The scholarship however only covered the tuition fee. Poor kampung boy needed to survive on his own feet in Phnom Penh city with estimated expenses of approximately 150$ p/month for food, books, accomd etc. His parents could only support around $50/60 p/month. And the rest was on him. So he did part time jobs. One at a local restaurant and the other one was distributing newspapers. Uni during the day, and work from 5 til night. (can we possibly manage tht?) He also once worked with nurses in the hospital at night. he was so exhausted tht his lecturer once asked him why he often dozes off in class. (we also doze off in class but with a different reason kn?)

Once in a while, the thought of giving up came across his mind. But then he keeps reminding himself tht if he give it all up and go home now, he would still be the same guy who have nothing and the villagers would jst blame him for being stubborn n not following the common. And so he preserve res.

Then Alhamdulillah he got another scholarship from IDB (Islamic dev. bank) tht lessen a bit the burden off his shoulder. In 2nd yr, he got to know IMAC, Islamic Medical Assoc. Cambodia. They do mobile clinics in rural areas almost every week! (IMAC is another story..later ye). Even with the scholarships he got, getting original new medical books is still beyond his reach. He only uses photostated books. In uni library, they have a very limited number of reference books. They can only read the books there in the library. Using only black and white photocopied books, whenever he needs diagrams or figures to refer (remember in medicine we really need pictures?!), he would go to the library, look at it there and read about the details at home. (Yes, let's count how MANY untouched/used reference books we have on our shelf).

Now he still do part time job since he needs more books and stuffs as he progresses. The smart n brilliant Roly now works as a tutor at a private college teaching biology. So every night, he needs to prepare for his lesson as well as his study. Being the stubborn n the rebellious one in his family, he decided not to go against his family in this one matter: marriage. He accepts with an open heart his match-make arranged by his mother and now engaged.

He has no time to think tht medicine is hard, coz to be able to study n live itself are hard enough for him.

-the end-

So now, are we in the position the complain n whine?? Ya Allah, place us among those who're grateful to You...ameen.

i luv holidayyyy

2009-07-07T10:36:00.023+01:00

whoaaa...poor blog i abandoned u for quite some time..but im still alive though. touched dwn at klia on 22nd june..quarantined my self at home for about a week(as if!)haha..

then went on a trip with my girlss last weekend. tikamad, jan, dian, ainarus, wani, chepah, iffah, n ainabak..some r still missing but it was a blast nonetheless! luv u guys lots! we had soooo much fun k! thanks for the great time..may we'll still be in touch with each othr no matter wut we do in the future. u guys will never be forgotten!

the reunion surely gave a different feeling frm our highskul time..but not tht much..haha think we've all grown up? well, in a way, yess..but at some point, not even by an inch! at least datin is still all crazy. =p n most importantly, met jannatun aftr 2yrs!ker 3 yrs tah?!tenkiu sbb blk msiaaa yer jenny yer.. (^_^) activity kitorg tak byk..coz it ws raining quite heavily on our 2nd day there..n also coz we enjoy talk, talk, n talk so much we dnt mind to be confined anywhere as long as we hav each othr n fooood!hehe..reminiscing was a must la kan! laughing at our own silly past surely brought back the sweet memories. here's the talking pics to sum up our wonderful trip; (it goes frm bottom to top)

n this marked the end of our trip..til we meet again!

early celebration of tikamad's 21st!

the must-have multipurpose bag

family pic =)

jjang!

l.o.v.e

off we go!

eating time!BBQ

Getting cheap stuffs for the bbq..

there's still few ppl i miss tht i haven't met..hope to get the chance b4 sept..to whom it may concern, pls make some time.

Mari berbasikal!

2009-06-06T02:24:00.003+01:00

CRM 2009 presents...

Nottingham's own trio set on a 35km cycling trip to Derby. They have voluntarily come up to the CRM team to help raise enough funds to buy medical supplies and other humanitarian needs of the poor in Cambodia.

As eager as they are to help the cause, we, the CRM team will do our best to visit house-to-house around Nottingham's student housing area to drop a sponsorship form, for each household's convenience. These sponsorship forms (hopefully,together with your contribution) will then be collected in roughly a week's time Insha Allah.

For households that wish to sponsor but the CRM team aren't able to reach due to various unfortunate reasons, please be happy to transfer the money to the account stated in the poster.

Take-home message:

Sponsor them, and make their cause your cause too.

"Enlightening the hopes of Cambodia"

Theme song: BASIKAL TUA oleh Sudirman

mr Brain!!

2009-06-05T15:45:00.005+01:00

A japanese drama with Kimura Takuya yg kacak as the lead actor!!i highly recommend u this drama!ala2 CSI but focusing more on neuroscience aspect of solving criminal cases. it's funny, informative n cute!! =) brain..brain..brain..i lyke!!

here's the synopsis.
Tsukumo Ryusuke is neuroscientist working for the National Research Institute of Police Science (part of the National Police Agency). He is generally incapable of reading the atmosphere of a situation, but when it comes to science, he is well respected. Whenever something catches his interest, he thoroughly sticks to it and never gives up, chasing down the criminals with certainty.

bila berdoa..

2009-05-22T10:54:00.010+01:00

"Ayah mana tak doakan anaknya.."

uhuhh..

and mak2 or ibu2 kita selalu bangun malam..buat semayang hajat utk kita kan..with or without us knowing it..but how often us, the anak2 nie bangun malam n berdoa for our parents?? sense of the give n take..cz they also need our prayers as much as we need theirs kan..hurmm..

same goes to our atok2 or nenek2..or family members lah kn, no matter how much care we show them, like buy this or tht for them..help them with this or that..always be there for them..don't u think it's rather not so worthy for them if we dnt pray for them? bukan ke tu semua very superficial..?coz the true way to show our unconditional love is not only frm wut we do on the outside which will be of no help for them in the hereafter. coz the one yg dpt pahala if we care for them now is none other than kita jugak. but how bout them? lagi2 la kalao yg dah pulang ke Rahmatullah..x kire how close we were with them mase di dunia nie..wut they need most is our prayer jugak in the end..apa guna mase hidupnya mcm belangkas, pemergiannya nanges bagai nk rak pulak tp once they're gone, wut's left is jst some traces of memories. the useless one kat 7 kaki dalam tu.

-just making sense of wut suddenly popped out of my mind-

n i really admire those who care bout others more than they care bout themselves..sifat empathy yg melimpah-ruah skali tuh..
tu the extent, bukn ank sendiri pn..bkn kawan2 mkn maggi semangkuk pn..tp tetap pray for their very best..bila bangun malam pn still pray for the very best for that othr persons.

tahap kemanisan iman tu is when we love our bros n sisters more than we love our own selves. kan? hope i get tht right..

bile kita leh jd camtu?

it's the climb, friends..

2009-05-13T15:23:00.010+01:00

dapat frm my fren..such a lovely n meaningful song..!bertepatan sgt lah nk exam2 ni kn! =)

THE CLIMB - Miley Crus

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

** There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

Repeat chorus**

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

hadoiii

2009-05-09T16:25:00.006+01:00

ya Allah besar sungguh ujianmu..

10 mins bus..15 mins walking..2 hrs of waiting..finally i got called in..

"there's nothing much we cn prescribe here.." sheesh!
still, i got a list of possibly 'useful' OTC meds frm her n a piece of advice too. at least im a bit relieved even though i still need an appointment at cripps.

btw, that ws less than 5 mins..!
then another 10 mins of walking..dropped by boots for the meds..then back home on leather... haha

half day is gone.

=(

p.s; im not whining, jst letting it out!

owh yes n one more thing, i found this frm blog hopping..

" Whenever we encounter a big problem,never say "Oh God, I have a big problem!"Instead say, "Hey problem, Ive got a BIG God!"...

learning & memory

2009-05-06T09:58:00.010+01:00

(1) sensory memory ---> (2) short term memory ---> (3) long term memory

Any thing we encounter in our daily life, any info traces from our surroundings, or whatever our lecturer said in class is first considered as (1). Can only be encoded into (2) through ATTENTION. (so pay attention!) Without it, (1) can only lasts for 0.3-0.5 secs. And ability to sustain attention can be achieved by making an EFFORT. What's more, (2) also doesn't last long, which is only for 10-15 secs. The consolidation process by the brain to shift (2) to (3) is via REHEARSAL. (so, rehearse wut we've learnt in class i.e recall!) And Atkinson 1968 says, items can only enter (3) via (2)..so we cn only remember things in longer term if we rehearse them often. kan? n as expected, our long term memory has UNLIMITED STORAGE CAPACITY.

n some says sleep improves memory? well it's more evident in procedural memory rather than factual type of memory so i guess whoever uses their buku sejarah spm as bedtime story book (like me) last time was in fact a bit pointless..(unless ur point of doing so ws to help u fall asleep faster).

on the other hand, the 2 amines norepinephrine and dopamine are highly correlated to attentional or motivational state at the time of learning. (i think i shud consider searching for those 2 in tablets nw..ada ke eyh?haha) And cholinergic activity eg ACh in hippocampus is also very importnt in learning. it's already proven that Cholinesterase inhibitor (physostigmine) gives above-normal result in memory retrieval experiment. (ada jual dipasarankah? :p)

To wrap-up, doa, usaha, ikhtiar and tawakkal lah.
Sungguh, Allah mencintai org2 yg bertawakkal.

Selamat ber-exam!~ (^_^)

cambodia relief mission 09

2009-04-28T07:50:00.018+01:00

It's a relief mission project to Cambodia organized by 14 medical students from UK&Eire under the Islamic Medical Association Msia (IMAM). The core mission is to provide Medical and Social relief for the Cambodians. And our main target group is Muslim populated villages in the rural Cambodia, even so, the non-Muslims population in the area will not be disadvantaged.

The proposed activities include:
-Mobile clinic
-Circumcisions
-Health hygiene awareness & education programme
-Provide basic medical & daily supplies
-Community project
etc

Therefore, regardless of our political differences, religion, race, and regardless of who we are, there are people in need out there and it is our duty to help.

So, please do join us and give us your support! DONATE today!

For more info on the project and instructions on donation, kindly visit: http://www.crm09.blogspot.com/

And join us on facebook!! Click--> CRM 09 Facebook Group

" Who is he that will lend to Allah a goodly loan so that He may multiply it to him many times? And it is Allah that decreases or increases (your provisions), and to Him you shall return, "
(Al-Baqarah, 245)

heartwarming...

2009-04-21T13:47:00.009+01:00

"Not just a year older, but a year better"
InsyaAllah.. =)

cuti2 easter...

2009-04-15T06:45:00.019+01:00

hurmm it's been a while haa since my last post..n i only hav 1 more week b4 the school opens..n then a month to go b4 my finals..scary mary dongg..!ok set those aside kejap..speaking of easter hols, i went to czech republic on the first week of the hols..so how ws czech eyh?erm it was alrite actually....haha not so convincing kn..well frankly speaking..prague ws good..so many interesting places to visit or shall i say, so many buildings to stare at?(right up: charles bridge)

we also went to olomouc n hradec kralove..well the trip as a whole ws more like visiting frens rather than a real sightseeing holiday..cz in olomouc n hradec which is not quite of a big city, not so much of sightseeing boel buat pwn..i spent most of my time in hradec in ila's n che nad's place..goofing around n makan!adela sikit2 jln2..n met the long lost classmate in olomouc..thanks to all czech ppl 4 the superb hospitality..!~

then on the 3rd weekend of the hols, 12 of us went on a trip to cornwall! it's in the southern part of england..sungguh best!!thankss korang!!we stayed in a very english-like cottage atas bukit by the sea shore at sennen cove. betape jakonnye rase tgk pantai di bumi england ni..cantek Subhanallah!! the weather..the scenery...perfecto!!

Eden Project

Senen Cove

trengganu?

backyard ;p

kek sedap! (^_^)

simba n frens~

randomised control

2009-04-04T14:32:00.010+01:00

err tittle pn sungguh random..maafler kalao ade yg tertipu..the brain dah penat bace biodata diri seniri so that's y it goes a bit random..erm not too long ago, my jr frm highskul tagged me..sori ler syiqin lembap sket nk buat..hehe
so here's the 6th pic from the 6th folder of the 6th folder of my 6th folder..(yes i hav lots of photo folders)
owh tht ws from our trip to acha's place in klang. not her wedding but her sister's. well perhaps the nxt/2nd trip would be hers i guess..hehee miss the gud old days! miss them! lame rasa x get in touch with some of them..hope they're doing great. im sure they are.

owh yes, dear msia..how's the first few days with the new pm?i knw some give their consent n some resent..but like it or not,be strong k msia..ya Allah kurniakanlah yg terbaik utk negarakuuu..aminnnnn.

=)

the little things

2009-03-26T23:55:00.004Z

nothing in particular sbenarnyer..
jst something i came across with when i was at a Gaza talk organised by nottingham stop war.
actually i was kinda sleepy during the talk coz i ws quite exhausted..yela jst got bck frm Prague then membaking-baking tart 4 cardiff games so the talk pn became so-so jugakla..
but wut fascinates me was the fact tht all sorts of ppl came for the talk. yes all sorts. muslim, of course. n the non-muslims, from old grandma to children. from weird-looking chaps to the hey-im-cool youths. seriously i think it's amazing. we might bump into these kind of ppl who look rather 'weird' or 'scary' to be near with on the street. but hey these ppl might also be the one who have something in common with u..they also CARE. we tend to judge ppl by their looks. but deep in their heart, we dnt know a thing! they cud be much better than those who look proper on the outside but actually ignorance in the inside.
n i cn even hear the granma behind me struggling to breathe properly! n she still come..if we were at tht age, will we still CARE as much as she does??

tegami

2009-03-15T15:24:00.004Z

tegami - Angela Aki

such a sweet song...

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no kanae ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsu dzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu...

adoi

2009-03-13T14:19:00.006Z

coursework..............

coursework..............

coursework..............

the deadline for all 3 coursework is nxt week...........i cn do this!!cnt wait to get this over with..
erghh mayb notts medics r jst not used to having lots of coursework..that's y im like this..hehe

owh yes the may exam schedule is out. *hypoxia*!!
no gap at all for all 4 papers...revision week pn xde...camne nie..wuaaa!!feel like locking my self in my room the whole easter..!but hav bought the flight tickt to prague already..guess i wont hav a 'serene' trip this time around.

*collapse*

not gud enough?

2009-03-04T08:59:00.004Z

u knw wut makes ppl feel so low? or the feeling tht some ppl hate the most? i think it's the thought or feeling of not good in anything we do. well yea in fact, i do feel it sometime. must say, it's an awful feeling. it really is. frm tht little feeling, ppl will feel, not worthless but mayb less worthy. but yea if we bring ourselves close to Allah and Quran, tht evil thoughts will jst go away and we'll soon realize how we're needed in the ummah. but the worse case, is when "individualism" is so much all around us, the eagerness of becoming the winner. are we not good enough if we lost? why wanna be the first so much? wut r we trying to prove? and to whom?but, does tht mean it's ok to be the lagging one?

u knw there are ppl who're really good at everything they do? some even hav almost evrythng in life..frm looks, to wealth, capabilities and perfect partners. they must be jack of all traits and master of everything too. but is tht really considered as evrything in life?or is it more to life?isn't tht jst too gud to be true? is it justifiable? did those ppl who excel in every single thing they lay their finger on work very hard diligently?or are they gifted? coz i too, wonder why cn't i excel in everything i do? did i not do my best and try hard enough?mayb yes.haha. but i believe, evryone has a different story of their lives. God is All Knowing. He gives more to those who're grateful. wut shud keep us going i think is faith. coz if we wanna reason evrything in life n question evrybody's fate..bole commit suicide kot! and the desire to excel will also keep us going..me too, jst like u, hav tht desire. n it's very strong too. at least in one thing, oh no actually two. mayb we cnt be narrow-minded n see "excellency" in a smaller scope or limited area. see it in a bigger picture, tht serves our purpose of life, then i tink there'll be lights at the end of the tunnel for us. may we work hard for it and may God makes it easy for us. Ameen.

p.s; i hav no idea frm where in the world did all these suddenly popped out of my head. but it's something useful to ponder upon tho.i think.

a busy week ke?

2009-03-02T10:02:00.010Z

x busy pwn..saje mengade sket..an eventful week is more like it..erm, ive been very lazy to update my blog these days xtau la nape, mayb running out of idea on wut to write already. owh n apart frm that, i hav plenty of courseworks diz sem so between courseworks n blog...i tink something else wins!haha.

jst got bck frm paintballing yesterday, omak aii sakit2 badan den~ n for the first time ever, the team i ws in won the game!haha!p.s; sesape tau mengurut meh2 ler tolong haa..^^

looking weary aftr the game yet still putting on the winning smile^^

then the night before, our Thai course-mate invited us to a Thai Night event in trent. Lov the atmosphere, the performances and the food too esp Som Tum! **suddenly feels like going to bangkok or phuket for holiday** I jst knew tht they eat sticky rice..so how come the beras siam we hav in msia x sticky pwn?Towards the end of the night, it became a bit draggy already. full, bloated and bored..off we went home.

the medics on thai nyte

the night before the thai nyte was IAW grand dinner...the whole IAW this yr was such a great success, job well done isoc ppl!gotta help out with the flyering on my day off. it's very rewarding when ppl spent a few mins of their busy time to listen to wut u has gotta say esp bout ur own religion but when ppl avoid u, giving those ure-annoying-dnt-come-near-me kind of look, yea it kinda upsetting but i enjoyed it tho. we also opened up a booth on the cultural fair day but we ended up selling food instead =) thanks 2 those who helped out!May our good deeds be blessed by Him insyaAllah. we made some new frens too :p it moved the heart u knw to hear how ppl suddenly found out that they're 'lost' in the world greed n how they work so hard to find "the right path" for a peace of mind. and us, how ironic we cn sometime forget the value of this greatest gift of all and take it for granted when the others r working so hard at it.

malaysia booth..agk serabut i knw..ala lst minit..haha

us with cute lil pakistani sisters n khaleel, a palestinian boy.

seri muka yg x brape nk berseri?heh..

2009-02-15T21:12:00.016Z

living in an alien land thousands miles away from home has made us, the true malaysians craving the traditional kueh so much...chewahh..intro jek tue..wut im trying to say is, last 2/3 wiks ke tah, me n anis hav fruitfully made our very first kueh seri muka..4 those who're quite sure how kueh seri muka looks like..google it loh!

the story began when we visited my foster parent's hse or i shall say my kakak n abg angkt here la, n k.eija taught us a simple and convenient way to make kueh seri muka. then we decided to try it ourselves. here's the recipe:

[bottom layer]
1. 2 1/2 cup glutinuos rice (soak for at least 1/2hr)
2. 1 cup thick coconut milk
3. salt to taste

Drain the rice and add in some water. (caution: water level must be only slightly higher than the rice level). cover the container with cling film and microwave for 5 mins. After the rice has smoothen a bit, add in the coconut milk and salt and mix them well. Leave in the microwave again for 2-4 mins. When it's done, Transfer the rice into a glass container/anything alike and press the rice down to level the surface. Set aside. (Make sure sapu mentega/margerine on the inside of the container first so it won't stick)

[top layer]
1. 1 1/2 cup sugar
2. 2 1/2 cup thick coconut cream
3. 4 1/4 teaspoon custard flour
4. 5 eggs
5. salt
6. pandan flavour/ green colourings / screwpine leaves juice

Combine all the ingredients above until well mixed. Strain. Then pour it onto the bottom layer prepared earlier. Microwave for 12-13mins. start off with the high heat then after 4-5 mins lower it down to medium high or medium.

tadaaa~~

Wanna knw the tragedy behind our seri muka?hehee..
well for a first timer, the taste was not bad at all i wud say..haha but the presentation was way off laa..1st, the top layer wasn't very smooth!we reckoned it ws because our cling film wasnt tight enuf. 2nd, the top layer ws SUPPOSED to be green but it turned out to be yellowish green instead..haha we thought it might be becoz of he custard colour tht overshadowed the green colorings. and 3rd, we cnt even cut the kueh coz the pulut ws too sticky! it's entirely our fault la cz we misunderstood the instruction :p we put in too much water..it's supposed to be "slightly higher than the glutinous rice level"..but we thought; "slightly higher than the normal rice water level"...

and there's also another funnier story which almost caused us to harm others..but let it remains secret la k..haha =)
up next: sushi! :)

jst sme silly stuff,dnt bother 2 read..THANK U

2009-02-04T21:55:00.010Z

perhatian: it's not tht i dnt hav anythng better to do, but it's jst tht im quite lazy now utk buat smua itu....
so here it is..hahaha

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
sempurna..by andra n backbone..(hoho..)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
7 things..by miley crus..(but what????doesnt seem to answr the question lol!!)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
taubat..by radja..(nice timing..hahaha)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
over it..by katherine mcphee (err..x paham)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
devotees..by lament (whoaa..im good..real goooood kann..haha)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
love gun..japanese song by aya hirano (but y am i the luv gun, huh frens?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
chantek..by altimet (exactly!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
love story..by taylor swift (whose luv story?xdo kojo den do..haha...)

WHAT IS 2+2?
leave..by jojo (why??erghh!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
flavor of life..by Ai otsuka (yes they're indeed the flavor of my life ^^)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
hanya kamu..by aizat (xtau ler menjawab soklan ke dak...)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
big big world..by emilia (verrry the big...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
what about now..by daughtry (yea wut not talking about NOW??)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
happy ending..by mika (kehkehkeh..ni shuffle okay bukan sengaja taruk)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU
if i were a boy..by beyonce (adehh...naaa i dnt think diz is wut they think...hehe)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
the time of my life..by david cook (hurmm...bole tahan ar..)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
sebelum terlena..by hijaz..(pheuwhh..naseb baek turned out lagu yg agk kena tema..)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
my first love..by takako uehara (NO!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
ada cinta..by acha septriasa (iyer.ada.)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
andai ku tahu syurgaku..by ungu (y is tht the worse?)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
sampai syurga..by faizal tahir (ameeen...)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
one love..by arashi (haha pahal pulak kan..)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
i hate this part right here..by pussycat dolls..(mmg lol berjuta-juta kali lah)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
aiko..by kiroro (sesapa rajin tlgla translate pe makne 'aiko' nie..main taruk jek..heh)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
teardrop in my guitar..by taylor swift (wut's that supposed to mean?!)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
breathe..by faith hill (mengapakah..?owh yea in case it suddenly stops rite..)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
ti amo..by exile (again..i dnt even knw the meaning of this song title..hehe)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
situasi..by bunkface (yes exactly..situasi itulah yg kita kena change..haha)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
best frens..by kiroro (tidak!)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
thank you..by kim hyun joong SS501

heart micheal heart

2009-02-04T17:38:00.006Z

We Will Not Go Down In Gaza Tonight.mp3 - micheal heart

A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

(C) We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

Repeat (C)

snowowowowooo...!~

2009-02-02T17:11:00.014Z

ok mungkin agak jakon sket but who cares!hehehe...lst yr frost je sikit2 je but this yr..lucky enuf, there's actually flakes falling heavily ok..im lovin it! for othrs this cn be quite a bothersome. some classes got canceled coz their lecturer got stuck in a heavy snow. some schools were closed and some events got canceled. some railway services in englnd got disrupted. and some airport runways were closed due to the bad weather.

but for some of us, we're happily struggling making our way to skul in the midst of the strong wind n heavy snow. enjoy playing snowball, making snowman..playing sledge etc.

anyhow, lucky us we have heaters to keep us warm in our home..and we have the super comfy duvets to sandwich or sushi our selves at nyte..if it's in Gaza...hurmmm..

the naked mr snowman..the owner took away it's muffler :(

iyakkkk~

the hepi faces on a snowy-snowy dayyy~

tmn dunkirk jaya. the snowflakes go woosh..woosh~

my house. the white front.

view frm my room, the backyard.

thE saTurdaY

2009-01-31T20:54:00.012Z

The "live from GAZA" event just now was splendid and totally unforgettable! Around 300 sisters came..and approx GBP 11,000 was raised on that day alone. Not only we're enlightened by powerful talks from the speakers, but we got to also know lots of new faces. Must say I really enjoyed it.

The event was for female only. Purpose being i suppose was to show how crucial women's role is in giving full support to the resistant. (dat's wut i understnd frm wut Sister Ageel said laa..[pardon me if i got her name wrong]) Cam lagu tu, tgn wanita yg menghayun buaian mampu menggoncang dunia..chewahhh..heh Owh n the event got a live coverage frm Al-Hiwar TV,a station viewed by most of the ppl in Palestine. And u knw wut, the CEO is Dr Azzam Tamimi!=p i jst knew it bebrape minggu yg lalu so dat's y a bit surprised n xcited with no particular reason.

Us counting the money collected

Talks were given by the very well-known speakers in this whole Palestine issues like;
1. Yvonne Ridley - I have always admire her, well at least eversince i knew her frm watching pressTV and that she reverted into Islam soon after she was caught by Ta*lib*an. Her spirit, her will, her words, her courage..Whenever she speaks, it's inspiring, n very influential. We dnt have such influential journalist in msia do we?

Me, with Yvonne.

2. Dr Jenny Tonge - She's frm House of Lords. Stressing more on the political ways of tackling the issue.

3. Ghada Ageel - She's a Palestinian. Ive listened to her talk b4 during the Palestine Conference not so long ago, but her stories jst now were much2 more heartbreaking..it touched the hearts of hundreds of us. And im quite sure most of the audiences cudn't contain their tears anymore when her voice cracked while telling bout how the ppl frm her village back in Khan Younis in Gaza lost their family members with no mercy to the war criminals we-all-knw-who.

4. Sister Rajnaara - A PHD student, also an activist in human rights. Cudnt really listen to her full talk coz needed to prepare packing the foods.

We also had a live phone call interview with a sister in Gaza. One of the things i remembered she said is something like, "Bout the electricity and heat, we can adapt on that but wut's more important is the seige, the blockade that need to be lifted...yada..yada" In my head i was thinking if it's us, can WE adapt living in darkness n cold?? Wut's
more fascinating bout her is, despite of all the sufferings they've been experiencing frm long ago in Gaza n with 3 kids around..she hold a BA in Econs n currently doing her MA in Accounting..

There're also bazaar selling foods, books, jeweleries and clothings. Gosh we went crazy seeing the scarves. Feel like buying dozens but thinking that "kita x boleh berlebih-lebihan even though it's for a gud cause" kann..lainla kalao kaya raya..heh

how's 1st week of sem 4?

2009-01-29T13:03:00.006Z

err...awal-awal minggu lagi dah NGANTUK!hisyh...such not a gud start aite! (still quite sleepy while writing this...) well sometime it's unavoidable but i'll get my normal sleeping pattern back soon..heh

new modules 4 this sem includes:
FBN- neuroanat n neuroscience...like always, lots to memorize.
GBP- drugss...interesting jugakla, heard it's tough..n cudn't agree more kot..but nothing's easy-peasy in this world.
MOM- my optional module, very biochem in nature.

and some are continuation frm the previous yr/sem like:
PH- epidemiology...erghh i tink i hav to really struggle for this one.
CLS-everything that's end with -logy. jst add immuno/microb etc. n genetics too. berlambak wehh...
n biasalah the all yr round modules CS & PD- communication skill n professional development.

Of winter, exams and dormancy....oh n othr stuff too

2009-01-23T15:08:00.003Z

ok it was cold outside, so going out wud definitely be the least thing i'd do during these past few weeks. wut's more, i was in a midst of an exam. So definitely-lah the gluteal had been very loyal sticking hard to the study carrel kan. so there goes the period of quiescence. Yet, the poor little brain had to be overloaded with all sorts of jargons..working overtime, of cos it demands for an extra pay. How? So F.O.O.D must be the best reward, rite? And have to admit, 'involuntary' hyperphagic also do occur 'once in a while'.

lnactive, defined as less than 30 mins of moderate physical activity, equivalent to brisk walking each day. Well that's certainly not wut i'd say but it's well-stated in my precious lecture note k.
Low physical activity + increase food uptake = (do the math ur self!)

But....NOT ANYMORE please i beg my self. I felt so unhealthy, but just cudn't help it. Even though it was a focused(quite la kot), productive and worthwhile episode of dormancy insyaAllah, ive liberated from it. Hehe..Alhamdulillah the exam is over. Tawakal jer lah. So now need to get myself 'organised' back, owh n the room too..kalao kat msia mungkin lipas dah bole beranak-pinak bwh katil kot..haha n most importantly, let's mencergaskan diri!hehe!

Will begin the new sem class the very next monday tho :(

How fast time flies..im half way through my 2nd yr!nnti blajar makin susah...:(

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Ob*a*ma or Mr O just got inaugurated as the 44th p last few days in a most expensive inaugural ceremony in the American history. Im not the right person to comment on this new presidency, but even with a little knowledge and little interest on politics i have, i kind of pity him for having to inherit a "mess". It's like inheriting a company that's almost bankrupt frm a brother (if he ever think kebabush is like a brother to him). Or a "grave" rather than a "gift" frm kebabush to him. Yela mana taknye, big recession, highly opposed foreign policy, un, guantanamo (Alhamdulillah he has called for the gitmo to be shut dwn within a yr kalao x silap) , Gaza/Palestine, Iraq, Afghanistn n etc..Hurm..whatever it is, with his popularity now and his campaign of "change" yg berapi-api tu, the world certainly is waiting and watching for his next move. Of course his top agenda wud be the economic crisis, but i dnt mind about their recession. Those corrupt systems need to learn a lesson anyway (Say rise the true Islamic banking!). But the world peace matters more to me now. And to most others too i believe. He did address the Muslim world in his inaugural speech by saying something like "We'll seek a way forward with the Muslims, base on mutual interest and respect" I knw Ham*as think he's jst another kebabush. And frankly speaking i really don't know if we shud take his word or not, but no harm in hoping n keep praying kan?

But i remember Khalid Meshaal once said in one of his speech, "the enemy won't help us, won't open the Rafah border for us, we have to do it ourselves, the ummah have to stand side by side with each othr and do not ally with the enemy." (Not exactly but something like that) So kalau lah, all the muslim countries can unite and stand side by side..i think we dnt even need to wait for Am*eric*a foreign policy to change or wut ever Mr O decision is. Semoga hati para pemimpin Islam kita lembut utk bersatu against all odds.

And to Gaza, congratulations on the victory! May heaven be the place for all the martyrs. Ameen.

Erm i think ive wrote too much dy. hehe so here's a few pics frm the rally lst wik.

Semashur dlm novel...hoho

2009-01-19T08:17:00.005Z

Ever heard of a novel Dekat Di Hati?? I jst knew bout it too anyway..frm my fren. i hav no ties wutsoever with the author n i hav no intention to promote the novel as well..saje nk berbangge seketika coz the settings of this novel is my beloved boarding school...Sekolah Menengah Sains Hulu Selangor...SEMASHUR!!Weeee~~(harusla berbangge kan?)

Here's a snippet of it;

JAM 11.55 malam. Suasana di 'aspuri' (asrama puteri) Sentosa 5, Sekolah Menengah Sains Hulu Selangor atau SEMASHUR agak sunyi. Para pelajar puteri di bilik itu sedang mentelaah pelajaran dengan gaya bebas. Ada yang tersandar di kepala katil berlapikkan bantal, ada yang meniarap dan ada yang tergolek di atas lantai beralaskan permaidani yang tentunya dibawa dari rumah. Masing-masing berulit dengan buku. Cuaca yang panas buat beberapa hari memang menjadikan suasana di dormitori itu membahang. Kerana itu kipas angin berputar laju seperti kipas helikopter. Meskipun begitu, para pelajar itu sudah biasa dengan keadaan berkuap sedemikian. Begitulah keadaan mereka hampir setiap malam setelah selesai menghadiri prep iaitu sesi ulang kaji pelajaran yang dilakukan setiap malam dari jam 8.30 hingga 10.30 di kelas masing-masing. Sesekali kesunyian diselang-seli dengan bunyi derupan kerepek yang dikunyah oleh dua tiga orang pelajar puteri. Amelya Izatti baru sahaja menyudahkan latihan Matematik Tambahannya. Dia pun bangun menuju ke almari untuk mengambil diari kesayangannya. Sebelum meletakkan kepalanya di bantal, pada diari itulah ditumpahkan apa yang terlintas di hatinya. Jika di rumah, dia boleh sahaja membuka laman blognya untuk mencurahkan apa sahaja. Tetapi bila di asrama dia tidak mampu lakukan itu kerana kemudahan melayari internet tidak dibenarkan kecuali di bawah pengawasan. Kerana itulah diari dijadikan sebagai ruang ganti. "Eh, gambar siapa yang jatuh tu?" tanya Amira yang kebetulan sedang membuka almari. Almarinya berada sebelah menyebelah dengan almari Izatti."Gambar abang..." jawab Izatti sambil tunduk untuk mengambil foto yang terjatuh dari diarinya."Tengok..."

Ulasan;
Kisah cinta monyet yang memaparkan cinta zaman sekolah yang akhirnya membawa kepada satu konflik cinta yang pastinya akan membawa anda kembali ke zaman persekolahan anda. Karya hasil nurkilan Eyman Hykal ini bakal menggamit sanubari anda tatkala menyelami karya tulisan beliau.

Our pengetua Mr Paizin yg chumel even got a souvenir (or is it jst a copy of the novel??heh) from the author, Eyman Haikal!

Left: Mr Paizin Right: Author of DDH

Missing school days already...huhu~ Owh btw, my dorm ws Sentosa 4!haha..n tipulah 1155 still studying gaye bebas kat bilik...lights off 1130 daaa..haha 1155 tue gune lilin jee tu or gossiping kat corridor je la..=)

yoShhh!

2009-01-06T19:29:00.002Z

God save them...

2009-01-04T14:53:00.011Z

Ya Allah, i can't concentrate..Ya Allah tenangkan hati ku..
La ilahaillahu'l a'limul hakim..subhanallahi rabbi'l arsyi'l a'zim.. Alhamdulillahi rabi'l a'lamin..

Ya Allah, kuatkanlah semangat jihad umat Islam di Gaza..
Egypt government insists on closing Rafah borders. So now they have no food supply, no medical aid frm outside. Those protesting for Gaza in West Bank were abducted by Israeli forces. Israeli forces are found to use depleted uranium in bombs for their ground offensive. Main hospital in Gaza cud soon be running out of electricity!Water pump are not operating, n they're running out of fuel n cooking gas. Obama still remain silent for he's not yet the official president. Wut, they won't stop unless Hamas stops their rockets? With all these, tell me, how are we supposed to remain calm?

Again, the least we can do...do'a. Besides the doa i posted earlier (refer post on 31st Dec 08), let's also recite the Qunut Nazilah. (Click image for larger view)

Also, let's recite the whole Surah 48, Al-Fath n its meaning for Moslems in Gaza.
Let's help putting this aggression to an end. And save Palestine. Save beloved Al-Aqsa.

Do'a really is our strong weapon that they're lacking. For our brothers n sisters in Gaza, and also for us all(yg nk xm especially)...

"Dan janganlah kamu berhati lemah dalam mengejar musuhmu. Jika kamu menderita kesakitan, maka ketahuilah mereka pun menderita kesakitan sebagaimana kamu rasakan, sedang kamu masih dapat mengharapkan dari Allah apa yang tidak dapat mereka harapkan. Allah Maha mengetahui, Maha bijaksana" Surah An-Nisa, verse 104.

happy birthday to ayah & ibu =)

2008-12-31T21:28:00.010Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

Mr and Mrs Yazid, both of them born on the 1st January. Now tell me, is that a coincidence or jodoh dari kayangan??hehehe..

Being the only daughter in the family, i always get their full attention..huhu my dad hardly says 'no' to wutever i want..(even though sumtime it does took him forever to realise the thing i ask..n kdg2 when the thing is so impossible pwn ayh akn 'yes' kan juge..haha saba je lah..but i get the cue la whenever i ask for his permission n he's contemplating between yes n no, then better not do it la) the least he'll say is, "alaa nantila/sabarla sayang.." also,always a yes to wutever i say too as far as i remember la..he's always on my side,n me too..is always on his =) whenever that happens, my dad will go like "of coz im on her side, she's my daughter" (with the word daughter so pekat mcm slang indian)..n that really piss my youngest bro off soo much..n he'll go like "mulalah tu ayh tu akak balik je..semualah 'daughter' dia"...haha hav to admit it's fun to see him jeles like that..hehe that's y i always be the middle man between my parents n the othr 3 jejaka (my othr 3 adik-bradik)..coz as they put it, "ayah ape2 akak ckp je cair.." hahaha!! But Alhamdulillah the trust they hav in me, i knw the boundary. And the mom, i tink she loves my big bro more than all of us!hahaha..but she's the one who'll put aside our favourite fud/chickn parts whenever we weren't around 4 lunch or dinner..her cooking is still the best in the whole universe..i wonder betulke pepatah dimana tumpahnya kuah kalau bukan ke nasi?if so, then mayb my cooking will be kebaboom jugakla in a few yrs time ke?hehe..but wut if kuah tertumpah kat ats lantai?isyh! owh n more bout ibu, she'll listen to all the fuss i make about my daily life..n will get worried over almost everything?n she's the one jgk yg soo alert who'll notice any difference in me even the tiniest bit like the thickness n length of my hair or whther ive gained weight, or if ive sabun my ears..u knw things like tht..n she'll fall sick first b4 i do..mayb that's wut they call mom's instinct kot. But dulu2 (zmn mude2 la) i often got into argument with her jugak..n whenever i merajuk n locked my self in my room n nanges sorg2..ayah's the one who'll knock on my door n bring me back the quantum of solace :p..rase dah lame plak x merajuk..hahaha

im missing home..miss to be in one room with them all the whole family, sharing the same bed talking laughing n teasing..adehh~

ok2 b4 mood blaja ke laut dalam, i better get back to my anatomy..adios~

....

2008-12-31T11:22:00.003Z

Busy Boycotting? Donating? Signing petition? Doing demonstration? Writing letters to your local MP? Don't forget the hidden forte, do'a..

Habib Ali al-Jufri, a paragon of the Hadhrami from the noble lineage of Rasulullah s.a.w advises the Muslims in general to read the following for the sake of the oppressed Muslims in Gaza (from Al-Qur'an, Surah al-Imran, 173 - 174):

To read once :

Men said to them: "A great army is gathering against you": And frightened them: But it (only) increased their Faith: They said: "For us Allah sufficeth, and He is the best disposer of affairs."

Then to repeat :

(450 times ideally, or at least 70 times, every evening)

Then to finish by reciting once :
And they returned with Grace and bounty from Allah: no harm ever touched them: For they followed the good pleasure of Allah: And Allah is the Lord of bounties unbounded.

Allahumma ameen. Allahumma ameen. Allahumma ameen

hari bergusti..ker hari berkotak?

2008-12-28T16:10:00.001Z

Boxing Day in England is regarded as a "shopping holiday" associated with the after-Christmas sales which is on the 26th December. On that day, most of the shopping complexes and retail outlets will have a massive price reduction.

Last yr i was in Istanbul during boxing day so didn't get the chance to experience the havoc.
So last friday, i was in London with 11 othr frens..semua dgn semangat waja to feeeel wut it was like to shop in London on Boxing Day. Apalagi, our target was definitely Oxford Street. Some says some shops open as early as 5am!And that includes NEXT!!Some also says that the street got real crowded starting from early morning!With that in mind, we went off at 5am!!Adoiilaa..

When we reached Oxford Street..most of the shops were still close. And unfortunately, one of us got the wrong info, NEXT will open at 5am on the 27th..not 26th! Grrr...!Wutever it is, there's already quite a few ppl walking around..probably those were the 'naive' n silly strange ppl who were on the same boat as us. And surprisingly, there's already a long queue outside the Selfridges & Co.!Weird iznit? Owh those ppl really didn't hav anything better to do...(ckp kt diri sniri jugaklah tu..hehe) =) It was cold..n i ws sleepy n starving!Off we went to have breakfast at McD...then around half past 6, we went out again to see if the no. of ppl on the street hav increased. and yes it had!And guess wut, we cud see another looooooooong queue outside Debenhams store..!Apalagi, we joined the crowd-la! We were let in by the security guard exactly at 7.As the name suggest, Boxing Day really is a day utk bergusti..survivor of the fitters!haha.. It was darn packed mcm sardine inside almost all the stores lah senang citer!Even on the street! It took me n Nad almost an hour queuing just to pay for one dress in Zara!When i reached MNG, Miss Selfridge n Topshop...all the "favourites" item were already gone..especially the small sizes one. The one left were all the sisa-sisa bit yg harga x berapa murah dah n size L ke atas..even if there were any, sah2 butang tercabut, kain koyak ke cz byk bertaburan on the floor. (At least end of year sale kat Sogo baju tak all over the place!)And the shelves kat Guess section in Selfridges&Co were empty!!(Adela tinggal 1 ke 2 handbags yg x best dah) Erghh....crazy..Adding to the madness, Sarah n Wani fell over aftr being pushed by the crowd when they're trying to rush entering River Island right aftr the door is opened at 9.

I can somehow understand how ppl cn get so agitated about it..But when it gets too crowded i kind of became demotivated and lost the mood to shop. It jst feels so stuffy..no air, no space n no time to think! It is somewhat a good experience though..hehe Now i knw how to mentally n physically prepare myself for nxt year's boxing day.(^_^)

thE ghoSt sTorY....

2008-12-27T20:07:00.007Z

Anyone from boarding school must have been veryy familiar with ghost stories being passed on from one batch to another. From jst a ghost myth until the real encounter with the real thing, boarding school students sure know alot bout it. 5 yrs in boarding school, i did once see histeric person right in front of me. But Alhamdulillah mintak dijauhkan tuhan i never experienced seeing the real thing with my own naked eye. (Teringat the best thing watching Thai ghost story kat bilik tv when we got to jerit kuat2 beramai2 ngn peluk beramai2..lawak2..)

During my stay in London (few days back or was it yesterday?) we stayed in a hostel at Kensel Green area. And guess wut, our room was right next to this one huge christian cemetery! So on the Boxing Day eve (while the Mat Sallehs having their Christmas party downstairs), tah mcm mane someone brought up a story bout ghosts. So it brought back the "boarding school" memories..one by one stories were unveiled. 12 ppl in one room sharing the goosebumps..haha i tink most of the stories we heard on that nite was frm Temeng about Sains Dungun..frm a real story of a girl with Saka, a pontianak playing basketball in the middle of the late night, seeing a marching squad with no heads to a bunch of students with nothing better to do playing ghost prank on their seniors! As for my skul, some of the stories i remembered are the one when this one fella saw a "ghost" in the mirror aftr brushing teeth. And bout the tasik thing, also bout the "agreement" our ustaz have with the "thing". We also talked bout the "tindih" cases happened back in KMB where Sarah n Azie themselves have experienced.

When it's late, we decided to call it quits..everyone's got tired already..(sbenanye takot gile) n also we needed to get ready for boxing day the next day! Before going to bed, kena la buat "rombongan" ke toilet since sume dah takot...n nisya whose bed was right nxt to the window trus x nk tido on hers so she shared with azie.

The next day, we jst realized that last night was Khamis malam Jumaat...n Azie said she heard something unpleasant while sleeping(like footsteps frm outside our room)..Uuuuuu...

Wallahua'alam..

owh cuti winter-ku

2008-12-19T20:55:00.011Z

Whoaa..it's been ages since i last updated my blog!kenapelah malas ekk..hurmm..Actually i just came back frm my winter vacation..

Before going off to spain, i went to Cork first. Stayed at Laburnum's House..ade nad,mihah,adilah,aliya n wani. The journey frm Dublin seriously took me forever!Mcm nk gi tumpat! Anyhow, xde la kampung sgt Cork tu..hehee The town was a lilttle bit smaller than Notts je.

Left: The very healthy vacation u knw...cycling gitu!

Right: i seriously didn't finish 'em all

Now a preview of my madrid-barcelona trip..hehe

The bad luck bit:
1. Nad lost her phone..
2. We missed our flight frm Madrid to Barcelona!!
3. We rent out a 5 seaters car for a road trip to Barc..(n there ws 6 of us!) coz the 6 seaters is manual, and also coz we're under 23 so the othr company cudn't rent us theirs.
4. Me n Nad got into the wrong train on our way back to the airport to get Nad's purse. So a 1/2 an hour journey now became 3 hrs or so..:(
5. We stayed at the 6th/7th floor hotel with no lifts, owned by a lonely super-psycho old man n in a dodgy Barcelona area.
6. Almost became the victim of pickpocket!!Hisyh berani makcik tu!!
7. Didn't get the chance to go shoppping at Madrid FO =(

The lucky bit:
1. I checked-in at EMA jst 30++ mins prior to my flight to Dublin..pheuwh!Thank God i wasn't denied to be on board..kalao x,mau nanges x berlagu..
2. Alhamdulillah we arrived safely at Barcelona..after a 600km/6 hours journey..and along the way..we cud enjoy the spectacular panoramic view of the othr side of Madrid!haha!
3. Found Nad's purse n phone!!
4. Very2 lucky tidak terkantoi menyeludup 2 org in that Barc hotel..
5. Were right on time to catch our bus to Girona Airport...

The most frequent phrase we use: "Quanto esto?", "Hola!", "Perdon"
The most frequent meal we had: McD McFish and Maggi! (no idea who win between the two..haha)

Actually there's a lot more..but will write more about this action-packed vacation in Spain later yea..Owh dah kene start pulon exam.......Adios!~

tHe wEeKeNd in LonDon

2008-12-02T00:34:00.012Z

A weekend away from Notts, and away from the loads(as if i hav any!owh yes i do actually..haha) is indeed a bless!Thanks to anisasmairinamaryamsuraiya!This was only my 4th time in London. 1-when first arrived in UK back in 07. 2-A day transit b4 flying off back 2 msia. 3-Thorpe Park..reason being:busy+miskin i suppose..huhu. Here's how the weekend went..

Friday
Had class till 5 but TGIF kan!Hopped in the train at 845pm..tergoda dgn the "buffet guy" so we got some drinks n pastries to keep the bellies happy for a while. Reached St Pancreas station at 10something kot..then headed straight to asmamaryamirina's fren's place in Edgeware Rd. Then dozed off!

Saturday
It was cold outside, but no prob, we were all wrapped up n ready to set off! First, we went off to Portabello Market. Mostly selling antiques stuff, clothings, and handcraft. Frankly speaking, i don't think it was a bargain..well mayb it is to Londeners but surely not to "org semi-kampung", like us Nottinghamians..hehe So the only thing i bought was a pink jumper. After a long walk down the endless stalls, we then decided to move to our next destination which was MSD hall...for lunch!

Man i felt so "Msia"!God the food was amazing!The price was reasonably quite high..Again, considering it's London we're talking about here where striking price is like a trend...n the kekenyangan n kepuasan we felt, it was soo worth it!haha. one keria=50p..adoiilaa..NMG stall pn jual 3 kuih for a pound..haha maka it forced me to forget indulging my self with pulut bakar n that keria..isk3..sob3..nvm!

And then..the seeking of theatre tickets began!Wicked, Zoro, Phantom of The Opera..all the best plays were either sold out, or selling at a price wayyyy out of our budget..So we ended up watching Blood Brothers with a price lil bit higher than our initial budget but yea we still watch it for not letting our selves down if the aim of coming down to London were unmet. It was in Phoenix Theatre. The play was great, we're satisfied n felt good coming out of the theatre. (or not coz "mereka dan keluarga mereka" whom names remain confidential tertumpah air matanya).

Before that, we stopped by at the Trafalgar square. hav no idea of the significance of all those lions wutever sculptures but we just snapped a few photos despite of the super-cold weather.
Then we went to Harrods. Since i need to save up for the upcoming winter hols, i didnt get anything except 4 the Krispy Kreme je yg mampu..lazat nyer,speechless. But then later, everybody got high frm hyperglycaemia. Then we dropped by at the Chinatown to kill time b4 the play.

Tup tup tup it's late already..so we rushed to hyde park where irina's mom stayed. It's a government apartment...I luved it!A typical British building on the outside at a high-end neighbourhood in d middle of the city with a simple but classy interior. Didn't feel like going back to my tiny lil room already after an overnyte there. Grrr! Well, wait for another 20yrs..n i'll be able 2 stay there at a price of only 20 quid pernyte!(insyaAllah...huhu berangannn!)hehe..

Sunday
We catched the 1045am train..and that marked the ending of our short trip in London...sob3.. BUT, our precious weekend was yet to come to an end..we continued our cuti2 in Notts pula..haha actually jst had lunch in Wagamama..Longed for Japanese food for quite some time already..but no sushi in wagamama..:( I went home feeeling sooo exhausted n threw my self in bed reaaaaaal early n woke up fresh the next morning!

p.s; u lagi pantas rupenya asma!hahaha!

f.a.m.i.l.y-ku

2008-11-30T17:55:00.003Z

Get your own Family Sticker Maker & MySpace Layouts.

Menate ni meme comel!

patience is a virtue..how long can we last?

2008-11-25T22:29:00.005Z

Well, patience is a virtue. Yes we should admit that. And me too are trying my best to keep the emotional side of me from conquering my mind and later, my action. But how long can we last? Patience sometime has its own limit jugak. We're human after all. Trying to live with it, ignore it and deny it. How long can our weak heart stands that? Sometimes we need a break. We do have a choice to choose things we like and dislike. But objectivity does not always work. How long do we have to play the card? How long do we have to put up with keeping our composure right? How long more do we have to pull the string? Tired it is.

Patience. Patience. Patience..is always what keep us sane. Keep us balanced.
Easier said that done i know. Coz patience is always one-sided. Ignorance much. But to keep being as what we are now and to not spoiling the colour of the atmosphere, we BETTER be patient..

"....Sungguh Allah beserta dengan org2 yg sabar"

Hold back, and relax. Take a deep breath in...and out....then doze off!

p.s; Salahkan hormone.haha.

p.s.s; tiket air asia murah...nak balik msia skarang gak!!

Reasons to cam-whoringgg =)

2008-11-22T09:43:00.014Z

Err..why do u think ppl luv taking pics?Frm one pose to another with no clear motif..it's jst so difficult to get bored of taking pics!
Well, maybe because of these...

1. Used to have a dream to become Msia's next top model or something but then not physically qualified...haha
2. Therapy, kot?
3. Make full use of those super hi-tech cams on the market.
4. Upholding Nokia tagline "Connecting People"..hehe coz im sure many will agree in saying taking pics strengthens the bond between u n ur frens/whoever ure taking pic with.
5. Memorabilia..
6. Gud way to laugh at ur self
7. Erm sometimes it's just a habit that can't be helped anymore..=D

Hope it make sense? (",)
Here are some of thousands cam-whoring photos i hav in store..hehe

dOwN & uP! 8 lagi..!^^

2008-11-19T18:45:00.005Z

When the whimsy wavered,

We lost. Conquered by the harsh reality.

The fervent hope we built, now shattered.

The garden of ardour we planted, now invaded.

Replaced by a bitter ambiguity.

But hey,

Despair will get nowhere,

Shrink back is not the way.

Dig the heels,

Colour the next steps. Beautifully.

Design the next lane. Pleasingly.

Live the next moment. Earnestly.

kena tagged dan menge-tag

2008-11-16T12:38:00.007Z

en haris nun di tokyo telah menge-tagged me..so here it is..i knw i took ages to reply this tagging thing..but doesnt matter kan..

The first one..7 things about me:

1. I luv talking...i really do...n i luv ppl around me to be talkative too..dat's y sometimes cnt stand a too quiet atmosphere..but if im in a bad mood or dislike the environment im in or hav some grudges towards anyone, i'll jst keep quiet..not getting myself involved with anything happening around or wut that person does. i'll be around but switching to "invisible" mode..somethng like that..hahahaha

2. Some says sy tidak berperasaan..i get that alot..hehehe n sometimes i do agree with that too..hehe meaning to say, im not that sensitive in certain things. but im quite sensitive of wut i do to others coz i tink heavily of others' perception. But one thing even if im terasa or anything, i always to keep it to myself..coz im not gud at handling "drama"..hahaha but u wont like it if i burst. huhu..

3. ive always wanted to become a doctor i hav no idea why. but kept it low it at the back of my mind until im in form 3 kot. some of my dreamed occupations are office girl/businesswoman (coz get to wear glamour or fancy outfit to work), wartawan or tv host (coz i luv to talk..), lawyer(again somethng to do with talking..), cikgu tadika like owning my own playskul (i luv cute kids..x cute pn suke jgak..haha), working at an advertising company like designing advertisement n all(coz rase cm cool to get the chance designing n stuff)..hurm tp x penah lak berangan jd suri rumah sepenuh masa kann?haha..

4. im very bad at drawing.......even the bunga bodoh i draw oso luks so hodoh..like seriouslyy!the only thing i proudly draw is copying the drawings frm my anatomy books..i mean im quite satisfied la of my anatomy drawing..or copying if u lyke..(even though some might still muntah with its keburuk-kn)

5. owh at times i can be quite pemalu..hehehehee

6. i dont drink coffee, tea, nescafe or of any sort yg sewaktu dengannye..hardly drink carbonated drinks as well..coz rase cm gas keluar through my nose n ears or any othr opn cavities..but still tolerable.

7. now i luv travelling. so to those with some extra cash n feel like sponsoring someone, dont hesitate to sponsor me traveling ok..? peace!

Tag yg kedua x payah la,sogan den nk take pic of kebusukn n kehuduhan ketika ini..and..the lucky ppl im tagging now are...
-aimi nas
-asma aini
-naddo
-farah bushy2

roger!

conGraTs gEmoOoOkS...^^

2008-11-14T15:08:00.007Z

The younger bro momoook got 5As in his UPSR!!Congrates2!!
As a present, he urged my dad to get him a PSP console.It's mint green!
Sy sungguh jeless....:( Wutever!

Ayah just got him a form to MRSM n he already submitted the form to SBP..i dnt think he really wants to go 2 boarding skul..And ibu won't be very keen bout it too i tink. O' common, he's a mommy's boy after all!hahaha!

Mmmuahhh2!!

haRi yG aGk pRoduCtive...!i lyKe...haha

2008-11-13T02:03:00.005Z

ive got a day off today..xdela productive sgt sbenanye...but im quite satisfied la with how i spent my day today..hehehe
woke up quite late jugak...hehe ( i tried to stay up aftr subuh but to no avail..haha!)
then at 11ish went to library..stayed there with anis til 6pm!had lunch in hosp cafe..n my aim for the day achieved!i rarely do u knw..hehe of coz we had some breaks here n there for snacks, a lil bit of gossips..nyanyi2 sket..smyg n all kan..but overall..okla not bad

then at 6 we went to aerobic class in QMC. ive always loved aerobics!tiring yet so much fun! But wud be even better be if we can hav dancerobics like those back then in kmb..
Habis stretched segala muscle yg ada..!And most importantly, berpeluh!
Then after the class which ended at 7, we went back to the library 2 continue the 'unfinished' business..haha
Then i went home like at 9ish, did nothing but having my dinner then surfing the nett a bit then sleep!i shud have continued studying i know!but cannot tahan laa..sleepy2 head me

semoga iman dikuatkn pada lain2 hari utk tabah berdepan dgn buku..hehehe

nOtTs gaMe 08...a lOnggg daY wiTh miXed feElinG

2008-11-11T07:32:00.011Z

Notts Game is a phenomenon in UK&Eire..no joke, it's not a mere sporting event where u win, other ppl lose and the other got injured. Last year i participated as a netball player, and this year i was in the organizing committee. So what's happening throughout the show and what's behind the scene, i witnessed them all. (Well not all but most of them laa)And im loving it!

Preparation
We've started NMG preparation since May in Msia. That was when we struggled seeking 4 sponsorship, printing volunteers shirt, medal, banners etc. Frankly speaking, i didnt feel the heat of NMG just yet. It just felt like organizing another get together event.That's it. Then school started. We continued the preparation, even more vigorously nearer to the date. The nite b4, i slept at 3ish. Some slept at 4ish doing sepanduk etc! Then the D-day arrived, it was the show time! I didn't hear my alarm clock beeping, and woke up 550ish in the morning! hahaha..!Alhamdulillah it went well with no major complaint or unpleasant situation..wut's more, ppl are very satisfied with it and enjoyed the day!Alhamdulillah sangat2..Then it ended gloriously with the dinner with Deputy of High Commissioner, MSD officers, players, volunteers and the coms. Then i was like, "Is that it?Well, need to get my daily life in place back then"

Experience
For this year's NMG, the whole Portland Building was my 'baby'. Yes it was indeed. I was in charged for every single thing in Portland. If it's a mess then im all screwed up. if it's collapsed due to overcrowded then i'll be dead first. hahaha..There's quite a no. of probs in realizing the Msian Food Fest this year, but Alhamdulillah with the supportive coms and co-operative food stalls operators, we managed to overcome it all. For the helping hands from MSD, thanks so much!!And i'm also so thankful everything went smoothly the other day. A MILLION THANKS TO ALL VOLUNTEERS(without u guys, there's no way this event cud be a huge success)AND POSTGRADS!! Also Kevin the Porter, and Mark the Chef. They're very helpful n nice!!And the Runners, we've troubled u guys so much on that day..sori n thank you!!Not to forget, the crowd for making the event merrier!I was so surprised to see Msian queuing to buy Nasi Lemak, drinks frm NMS stall etc!!i really didn't expect this but hey look, we're goooood!! There surely be a few things i missed or overlooked on that day. For any wrongdoings, ill feelings and misunderstandings..I DO APOLOGIZE.

Mixed Feeling
Being part of this NMG, i really learnt alot! i especially learnt that not everyone is the same. Some are easily pissed off and some are easily pleased. To cross path with lots of ppl, i really am feel lucky and grateful. I was so nervous the whole day, hoping and praying nothing would go wrong to the extend i missed my breakfast n lunch. I didnt even knw how the volunteers lunch that i ordered myself tasted like. Thanks to Kak Tim n Kak Fida 4 giving me Nasi Lemak, some choc cakes, goreng pisang n rojak buah. By the end of the day, i was so exhausted i cud barely think straight n keep my eyes open. But most importantly, i was very..very..very happy. That made me forget all the tiredness and hunger!But there's also a few things i regret, i didn't get to exclusively entertain my frens who came ovr frm Ireland, Iqa n Mizah..Sorry!And Nab n Farah frm Bristol, sorry weh laen kali dtg lg sure layanan first class!And other few frens oso..sorry!Then i also met my long lost classmate when we're in standard 6, Melissa for like 5 seconds..isk3..sob3..I said to her later, gimme a sec coz i had to run an errand. Then i just lost her!very sad...

There was twice during the day that i almost fainted hearing some news...1st: When i called Dessi Express asking 4 food 4 volunteers, the owner Ayoob said,"Was it today?I thought the Msian Game is tomorrow" With the nearly shouting voice, jaw dropped and wide-opened eyes i replied "No, it's today!8th of Nov?" After exchanging a few more lines, then he said,"Im joking, they're on their way..will be there in 5-10mins" WTH rite?Lawak yg sungguh tak kena pada masanya.
Then another one, Kevin the porter. I said, "Is everything alright, Kevin?"Then he said,"We need to shut everything down.Just no more, that's it for the day." Again, with the same tone and reaction as earlier i replied,"What?Why??"
"Haha, easy girl..jokin. Everything's alright really. It's good"
Gosh, terima kasihlah sbb kasi lawak selingan pada hari2 seperti ini yerr..!!

Evryone has their own "history" or "story" with Notts Game 08..it brings tears to sme ppl, it brings anger n hatred to some othr ppl, it also connects ppl together in every way. And for some reasons, NMG 08 is special to me..i hope it is to u too. Im proud to be part of it, an am honoured to to be working with great Nottinghamians in fruitfully realizing this event. What a great Msian community we are!

With that, let's re-organize our daily life..n STUDY!hehehe :)

Left: NMS drink stall with the hardworking volunteers. Right: With my fellow frens in the com.

yes it's autumn in my heart...:P

2008-11-03T22:58:00.008Z

Kehkehkeh..pls don't be affected much by the misleading title..it jst suddenly popped outta my mind..n i luv the pic up there. taken when i was on my way to netball practise on sat in highfield. felt so gud to walk dwn the lane on that afternoon. the falling leaves seemed soo beautiful. Luckily there are still some leftover greeny leavy to freshen me up. And the weather was just nice for an outdoor activity esp strolling along some lakesides or something.

But not anymore i think..it's a bit colder now..but the leaves keep falling and a lot more trees are now "naked". The weather gets more n more depressing each day towards the winter. God i dnt like winter. People wrapped in black n grey..From top to toes! Colourful n flowery outfit will just look weird and doesn't seem to blend into the whole picture. No ones on the field n even on the streets sometime. It gets dark frm 4. For Muslims, Zuhur prayer gets really short and no Isha'(or Was it Magrib?cudn't recall laa..) Extremities got numb like almost every time they're exposed. And the gloomy lil cloudy accompanied by mrs windy makes everybody moody. (it rhymes!)..n most importantly...we'll prone to snacking n hibernating with almost a 100% guarantee of weight gain!hahaha..

But...looking 4wd to the winter hols..Plan to go to Barcelona n Madrid..haven't booked the plane ticket though..but insyaAllah la..main attraction there is definitely la....Zara!haha..(wut,u think im gonna say real madrid n barcelona stadium???)if only beckham is still in real madrid..huhu
After that...gotta get my heads down fully geared for the exam! Terus seram sjuk pk psl exam..haha

K till then,wslm.

6 decades of catastrophe Nakba..do we care?

2008-11-01T16:54:00.009Z

I went to Palestine Conference held in my uni just now. The talk was great with the astounding speakers like Dr Azim Tamimi and a local MP Ms Bronnes Jenny Tonge. My initial intention going for the talk was to gain more knowledge about the long lasting Palestine issue. Then i began to realize that it's no longer the time to just 'gain knowledge'..it's time for 'action'!Dnt get me wrong, the knowledge about what's really happening there in Palestine, Ghaza, Syrria, Jurusalem and all the other refugee camps around there are crucial to spark awareness.

One of the speakers, Dr Ghada Ageel..a Palestinian who grew up in a refugee camp in Ghaza. The story of her experience is really full of sorrow. The camp is very crowded, without proper clean water supply, and access to proper education. Her grandma now lives only 15mins from her own village in Palestine. Imagine, u can see ur homeland yet u're denied to be there and live there. But even from the very old generation of Palestinian, their hope to be back in their homeland is still high despite of how bad the current situation is. Quoting her dialog with her grandma (80++ yrs old)..:
SHE: You know how America controls the international law, do you? Then why still have high hopes of coming back?
GRANDMA: The one who'll make us return to Palestine is not America, not Israel, not the Jews or whatsoever
SHE: Then?
GRANDMA: But we will return. There'll definitely be an end to this. Last time, the turk in Europe..where are they now?Then the British Mandate, where are they now?So there must be an end to this as well i believe. If not now, tomorrow, or the day after, and if i don't have the chance, you will and if not, your children will..but i believe WE WILL RETURN.

That's how determined they are. It's been 60 yrs, and the Palestinian still hanging on there hoping and fighting with their very best ability for their rights to live, right to education, right to be buried in dignity etc.

Well, it's even stated in the Quran kan that God has promised us Muslims a winning. So, we're already at the winning side. It's just the matter of time and most importantly..how.

Felt so ashamed jst now. Coz at the conference, the British MP came as one of the panels. She actively involved in fighting for the rights for Palestine land. And there's this one lady from Leicester who have actively fought for this issue for over 30years!Imagine. They're not even Muslims..Yet they also understnd the urgent need of putting this racist discrimination into an end. Well that should be the case actually coz this issue is purely a secular colonial mind setting issue initiated by a Frenchman who wasn't even a Jew! (can learn more bout diz if follow the history behind it). But it's more to it for us since it's our Holy land. It's where our first Qiblat was i.e Al-Aqsa. So it makes sense dat we should care more bout it.

The British speaker mainly talked about "Why nothing's done about it" even though this massacre and invasion are totally against international law. Some points she made includes:

Due to cultural sentiments.
Holocaust. If the west fight against what Israel's doing to Palestine, then the the Jews will argue like "Why can't we do it when you already did it to us?"
Invasion of Iraq. Again, the world will say, " Why America can invade Iraq and not Israel?" or something like that.
The strong, mighty and totally legal Pro-Israel lobby. Strongest one is in America which is the America's Pro-Israel Lobby (AIPAC). they do enormous campaign for politician. And politician who goes against them will be dead meat. And in Britain, the Friends of Isreal (FOI) which is considered as the backbone of MP in Britain political world.

Then she moved into "What can WE do about it?"
She stressed the importance of writing letters to local MP, do appointments discussing what the politicians should do about it. (Well, no comment on my part but i do totally agree with her)

Then they're (someone frm FOSIS) planning to set a massive Palestine issue organization to vigorously do campaign, pressurize local MPs etc. So we joined and hope some good news will come out of it. However, in term of boycotting Israeli products, I don't knw how far it will get us to. Seeing the current economy situation, our daily life revolves around their products. So, kena byk tanye pendapat org2 pakar and up to our stand really jugak kot..dnt knw.

Of course for us who're so used to live in cozy lifestyle and being pampered all the time, it's hard to imagine and to put ourselves in their shoes. But try to, coz we have to.

kE-busY-aN mElaNda...

2008-10-29T08:19:00.003Z

Salam,

I attended Dublin game and Kelab UMNO open hse in RCSI last weekend. But will write bout it later when ive got the pics.

Yes, am very BUSY now...dont get me wrong,i dnt intend to whine..coz i seek this "busyness" my self anyway..it's bearable and i love it indeed!i know myself very well to the extent of tryinna avoid having too much free time coz i'll end up wasting it to some stupid silly stuff..hehe

It's 10 days to Nottingham Malaysian Game 08!! Im so excited! im in charged of the Msian Food Fest which will be held in portland Ballroom. It's where we have food stalls selling Msian cuisines. Erghh very pening to sort that out. now we've got like 15 stalls..let alone managing the stalls, now i hav to deal with uni's new stupid regulations on bringing own cooked food into uni. Their main concern is; not favoring bad press if anyone ever got food poisoning frm buying food in uni area. Erghh this 'prestigious' uni really knows how to avoid unpleasant public relations. i have no idea whereabout is the care for their students(worrying over wut if they get food poisoning or something frm the stall) in the rank of their concern. Wutever it is, it's almost been sorted out. Just left with sending out my drafted email and wait for being bombarded with questions :)

It's a huge event!Most awaited one in the whole UK&Eire..so if u happen to be around uk diz nov, do make sure u come to NMG08 yea..Minister of Higher Edu has confirmed his attendance. Sure he'll bring his rombongan. So as Your Excellency, the Msia High Commisioner. Therefore, i wonder which tv station will tag along diz time around..hehe..perlu la mencapap kn diri nampaknyer..haha

Here's the website: http://www.nms-uk.com/NMS/games.htm
And enjoy the video promo :)

acTioN!

2008-10-21T21:06:00.005+01:00

Once a week, we girls in my uni will have a sister circle with Sister Fullah (an Algerian) in the prayer room. It's a sitting discussing Quran interpretation. I can guarantee u'll never get bored listening to her advise n tazkirah...the way she convey it is just sooo attention grabbing.
Here I just wanted to share some of the amazing points she made just now. I elaborate the points myself according to my understanding so do apologize if it's not being put together very well.

The very one point that really awakened me was knowing the fact that this one verse in Quran sounds;
"Ya Aiyuhallazi Na'Amanu Wa'amilu Solihat..."
- O' those who believe, and who do good deeds..

Allah didn't leave the verse hanging only til those who believe but continue with the one who do good deeds as well was mainly because IF WE BELIEF, WE OUGHT TO ALSO DO GOOD DEEDS.

Strong belief alone won't do us any good be it now or in the hereafter..it must be coupled with ACTION which is of course good deeds. If we're a true believer, we definitely will potray it in our action meaning to say, in our daily lives. And all the good deeds we do are for our own good, not anyone else. Well, we do do good for others but wut i meant is wut we give, we get back. Same goes to wrong doing, if we do bad things, we'll get the punishment in return or something unpleasant will come out of it. If it's not now and then, maybe later. Hukum Karma or Law of Nature. No one made that up, it's mentioned in the Quran;

Surah Al-Isra' verse 7;
"Jika kamu berbuat baik bererti kamu berbuat baik untuk dirimu sendiri. Dan jika kamu berbuat jahat, maka (kerugian kejahatan)itu untuk dirimu sendiri...."

So, if we learn Quran, read Quran, and uphold Quran as our main reference, we shall also practise Quran, do as we're told in the Quran. Coz we know the best akhlak is our prophet Muhammad's. And Rasulullah SAW's akhlak is the Quran.

A piece of ayat regarding Quran;
Surah Al-Isra' verse 9;
Sungguh, Al-Quran ini memberi petunjuk kejalan yg lurus dan memberi kabar gembira kpd org mukmin yg mengerjekan kebajikan bahawa mereka akan mendapat pahala yg besar"

BUT, world of course has a lot to offer in term of pleasure..and earth's "colloid osmotic pressure" seems to be so strong it sucked us to live in it's fantasy full of pleasure. Because sometimes, when we're healthy, wealthy, and happy we tend to forget things especially doing good deeds. Fitrah. And more to it, Syaitan.
But shall we not worry at all about it, coz once we're drowned..it doesn't mean we're bound to be drowned for ever..coz door towards taubah is always open so wide welcoming us. Just seek for God's forgiveness..and repent. InsyaAllah we'll be forgiven, coz in Islam there's always a chance..not only second but thousands n even more..providing, we really do feel remorse for the wrong doings we've done.

However must we bear in mind, From Al-Isra' ayat 8;
"Mudah-mudahan Tuhan kamu melimpahkan rahmat kepada kamu, tetapi jika kamu kembali (melakukan kejahatan) nescaya Kami kembali (mengazabmu)...."

And sometime at some point, bad things happen with hikmah. The worse event in our life can turn out to be the turning point for us to be a better person. I remember a saying; "When the world pushes u to the ground, u're in the best position to pray" (sujud)..Given that we have patience. (And of coz, it's not easy) No doubt that's the principle. As mentioned in the Quran;

Surah Al-Baqarah verse 153,
"Wahai org-org yg beriman!Mohonlah pertolongan (kpd Allah) dgn sabar dan solat. Sungguh, Allah beserta dgn org-org yg sabar"

Indeed, Quran got everything we need :)
Quite a few verse frm surah Al-Isra' is becoz today's circle was mainly ofcusing on the interpretation of that surah.
This is for my reminder. Just sharing.
"Sampaikanlah walaupun satu ayat.."

sCreW lonGgaR keRana yOga...

2008-10-17T14:34:00.009+01:00

It's not like im into yoga now..but yesterday was my very first experience doing proper yoga with proper (pregnant!) instructor..so hear me out.

Well, I suddenly felt like trying to do yoga, so i joined my 2 othr frens to yoga class hosted by Q-Active for an hour. Of course i was excited at first! But after the class ended..one thing im so sure about was, Yoga wasn't my thing. It was the slowest exercise ive ever done. No sweating wutsoever. Of course, it tested the flexibility of our vertebrae as well as the stretching degree of our muscle fibers..n i also luv the part when it demands our full concentration on our current being. Sort of freeing our mind frm anything else.Nice. But i jst don't hav the patience to bear all super-slow movements.

The instructor kept saying frm time to time...move slowly, without slackening..i did it. But i didn't get the refreshing feeling frm it which is wut i seek in every exercise i do. Of course full cardiac workout like aerobics or any othr sports are tiring. But they're all refreshing. Well, each human is different. As of for me, i prefer something that requires agility, alertness and quick movements. Also not to forget, fun!

The theme for our yoga class yesterday was strength with ease..
Yoga poses or asanas stress on breathing techniques as well. To begin with, we were first asked to relate the root of breathing with it's depth(deep or shallow) n pattern(fast or slow). So to relax and concentrate, we're asked to breathe from the centre of abdominal area i.e belly button/umnbilical in an anatomical supine position i.e lying down flat facing up.
Then we slowly moved from one asana to another. The few asanas we managed to complete yesterday includes:

1.Adho Mukha Svanasana--> Downward facing dog which involve standing, mild flexion of the trunk with bums up and the palm pressing the earth.
2.Ustrasana--> Camel pose which is beckbend.
3.Ardha Chandrasana-->Half moon pose involving standing and balancing.
4.Urdhva Hastasana--> Raised hands while standing pose.
5.Uttasana-->Standing forward bend to stretch and lengthen the hamstrings.
6.Virabhadrasana 1-->It's called a warrior 1 pose, i have no idea why. Basically bending our right knee over the ankle forming right angle, bringing arms up then slightly backbend.

Those are not all, there's a lot more but cudn't bring my self to look 'em all up.
For those who enjoyed Yoga, i respect u!(^_^)

tHe goOd oLd daYs..

2008-10-14T23:12:00.009+01:00

From left: Me,ainarus,wani, and jan

I was browsing through my photo collection..planning to hang some on the wall..then i came across of this very recognizable pic ..n so it dragged me to recall back the time frame when the pic was taken..

It was our very last day at school...the night after bio paper(final paper) if im not mistaken..kind of our very own raya celebration..only US, the pioneer were around at that time (cz it was spm period, othr students were on holiday)..so it brought back the memory of being the only batch present which was when we first came in yr 2000..hehe ok2 get bck 2 the raya celeb after bio ppr,the hall was full of joyous laughter n sparkling smile!it definitely was coz we jst finished our SPM!Hurm..i dont wish to turn back time..but i jst wish i can be as carefree as before..come to think of it,mayb coz back in skul, i lived 4 the present,nvr think soo much bout any othr thing..i studied happily, i mingled happily..and etc..not to say im not happy now but it's jst that..erghh very difficult to describe lah..i wonder how i stayed up late at night last time to revise for spm HAPPILY without complaining..coz i complaint a lot now!i hate myself for that..but sometime it jst cnt be helped..mayb cz the environment has changed.
oops ive deviated way off the main topic here..hehe

owh yes speaking of staying up late for revision, i miss studying ramai2 at the study room after lights off..then went upstairs either continue studying with limited amount of light coming frm the corridor or gossiping!..i remember there ws one time during Ramadhan, i stayed up all nyte!(diz one was after i moved to the tiny lil room at the end of the corridor with nadia)...i wasn't panning to, i think but it ws becoz there were 2 othr creatures sleeping on my bed!..Jan n Aimi kot x silap..or was it Nadia n Aimi..haha they were sleeping so soundly i cudnt bear to wake them up..but after sahur n subuh i remember i didnt feel sleepy anymore..it was only mid morning i cud get to bed..very zombie!it was the first n last time i ever stayed up all nyte revising!n up til now i dare to say that it was also the most peaceful study time i ever had..(i wonder how come i didnt afraid of staying up alone?!)so thnx to them both actually..hehe

ok,im so sleepy already..till then.

ape-ape la labu...

2008-10-13T22:09:00.007+01:00

i think twice b4 i wrote this entry..whether it's appropriate to hav it in here but after giving some thoughts, i tink i shud pour it out in here since this is my site..i cn write wutever i deem suitable to write..or wutever i feel like writing even..so here it goes!

im in my uni's msian society committee..jst now he had a meeting discussing bout our upcoming event i.e Deeparaya(i knw Diwali is like 3 weeks away) celebration n notts game..apparently the meeting time was kept changing b4 diz n has only been decided like last 2 days(or ws it yesterday i cudnt recall)..as a loyal n flexible member of the team(haha!)......it didn't even occur to me that that such trivial matter cud be a reason for an immediate resignation notice!
Fine!
The main reason given were;
1. She cnt stand the way all of us keep changing time for meeting (!!) -->she said we shud hav given a 3-4 days notice b4 changing meeting time(wut the H wey?)
2.Felt unvalued as a com members coz it has been twice dat she ws uninformed about some meetings n changing of time...(grrr..)
3. We hav meeting like sometime twice a week--->apparently she cnt giv her everything to diz soc since she's also the head of some othr BIG societies..(wuteverrrr)

Lame la weyy..!
1.The meeting time ws kept changing becoz 2 accomodate the other com member as well..we need everybody to be present for certain meetings..esp 4 NMG,dat's keep changing the time so everybody cud attend..wut 3-4 days notice??!it's emergency n urgent FGS!not evrything goes as planned...furthermore, jst nw ws the very first time she brought this up..if she ever felt uncomfortable with the way all of us plan or run our meeting..cudnt she jst let us knw earlier so we cud do something about it rather than jst walk(or run if dat's better) away!!The way i look at it..dat's sooo unprofessional n irresponsible!She cnt get it why the othr 6 of us cn get along with that style of handling things...gosh!it's her prob dat she cnt cope with that..eventhough she has othr big socs to run,but she has promised to commit during the election manifesto!if the othrs cn be flexible despite of all othr engagements..why cnt she??? pls3 dnt ever expect thingss 2 always go all as planned!
2.Why hav to expect special treatment of getting txt invitation to all meetings??we hav the YG..dat's where we discuss everything!it took forever to get her join the group n then why so quiet in there??never a single word frm her!It's a loss to the president n secretary then that they hav to always txt everybody to confirm attendance for evry single meeting..why wasting othr ppl's credit!(dat's so unprofessional??but dat's the fact sorry)it's in the constitution that unis email add is the official one to be used as means of communication??(Ppl,is that even relevant to be an excuse??!)all of us have agreed to set up the YG,n she said she read all of our emails in there but why still complaint bout not getting the meeting details when we've posted up evry single thing on the YG???And most importantly why bring it up just now n then resign!where goes the so called professionalism??Immediate notice of resignation u c...but still wut?participate in organising the NMG thank u partyn deeparaya?THANK U so much laa!! cn't attend nmg coz it falls on her birthday!let alone her contribution for the game!
3.This part really pissed me off..why cnt jst frankly tell us that she cnt giv 100% to nms?we're having meeting more than once in a week jst when there's a need for it..not becoz we love to meet each othr an talk bout nms!she think we like it so much??we definitely got othr work to do..but being in the com,dat's also mean giving our full commitment of getting the job done no matter how much time we ought to spend for it..we'll be meeting each othr more regularly when it's nearer to nmg..but why cnt she get it???it's not like every week we hav to hav meeting anyway..if we dnt hav any event in any particular month then there's no need to hav a meeting..but now,things r quite overwhelming..so deal with it,why blame us when she herself cnt cope with loads..

in the end, we jst said..."we respect ur decision"...wut else cn we do?in my opinion, a true, sincere n committed member won't mind soo much ovr the time they spent for the soc,n won't be very calculative ovr the constitution..cz wut's matter is happiness, joy n experience of contributing something for our own ppl..when we dnt put our heart in doing something,we'll jst kill our time with nothing in return..

ok i hav way tooo much drama for today...n that's it!im off!

luCky

2008-10-12T00:17:00.006+01:00

**last summer..**
lucky im in luv with my bestfrens
lucky to have been where i hav been
lucky to be coming home again..

**now**
lucky we're in luv in every way
lucky to have stayed where we hav stayed
lucky to be coming home someday..

courtesy: jason mraz ft colbie caliot - lucky

hisTory taKinG..riGiD,no?

2008-10-08T12:36:00.004+01:00

Well, I just got back from my hosp visit..it ws the first for this term n we were practising abdominal examination..as usual, we finished early..kinda dull today..but on the othr hand, learned lots of stuff as well..

History taking is said to contribute about 80-90% of the diagnosis..so here, i jst wanna share how we're taught in taking patients' medical history n how they do it here in uk..coz im not sure how it's done back home..assuming it's pretty much similar though(universal??)

Basic framework of medical interview

1. Greetings & consent ---> building rapport with the patient
2. Demographic info ----> name, age, job
3. Presenting problem ----> symptoms
- E.g Pain : severity, onset( sudden/acute/chronic), character(sharp shooting/dull), radiation, frequency/pattern, duration, relieving & exacerbating factors, associated features
4. Associated symptoms
5. Background info/Risk factor ---> family history (FH), social history (SH-smoking n drinking), drug & allergy history (DH), Past medical history (PMH)
6. Effect on patients ( in daily routine etc)
7. Patients' belief & expectation ---> Ideas, Concerns, and Expectation
8.Summary

Well that's it..sometimes i do feel it kinda rigid, u knw like hav 2 follow the framework every time. But then i realise, it's not the matter of getting it in order, but it's the matter of getting it right..coz in reality it might not go that way coz patient cn sometime deviate us to their personal story or some of the info might have already in the record..still, it's gud to have the framework n it's order in mind so the interview will be more organised and won't be confusing the patient of us keep coming back n forth..but to as a new comer like me..we cn sometime be too 'tied up' with the question hence making the history taking looks like a "job interview" or something..esp during the osce!!it's like we're rushing the patient to fill up the checklist we hav in mind...well it's only 5mins though in osce..so definitely we need to rush things dwn..but in real interview..really need more practise so i won't be missing anything..

faTteninG ur self?

2008-10-03T16:09:00.005+01:00

Here's the highway to it..

Wut's more fattening can u do than having the whole lot a bucket (or is it a pile?) of choc for urself??
heheheee..(^_^)

saLam aiDilfitRi~

2008-09-30T19:03:00.007+01:00

Dear Muslims,

With Hearty Greetings and All Good Wishes on the Auspicious Day of Eid, I would like to wish all of you HAPPY EID UL FITR. May this happy occasion brings us more blessings, joy and tranquility in life.

"Minal 'Aidin Wal Faizin" -Semoga kita semua tergolong dalam mereka yang kembali (ke fitrah) dan berhasil (dalam latihan menahan diri)

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29th Sept 08 - Me n my frens were break-fasting at Kak Ayu's place..then after a series of filling up our tiny lil tummy, we got a text frm ISOC president saying that Eid falls on 30th Sept..TOMORROW!!(or today dat im writing diz)..we're quite surprised, coz it's rather unexpected n so sudden..most of us hoped it wud fall on 1st Oct..simply to put, we weren't mentally prepared jst yet..then,pasrah. fine, class at 11 2morrow. so wut.

Wutever it is, i ws soo hepi coz we're beramai-ramai having our last iftar 4 diz yr..sgt meriah, didnt feel alone la sng citer..hehe then we went home, preparing some juadah utk pagi raya esoknya..seronok2!

30th Sept 08 - Like the previous yr, Eid prayer was held at sports centre..there ws a sea of Muslims...all over the world!How precious..how unique Islam is..festival is not merely a day of fest, but it's also about togetherness..no matter wut u wear, wut language u speak, frm where u come from, who ur fren is, n wut u do..everybody becomes one..SUJUD kpd Ilahi..If this is how it's like in Nottingham on Eid day, i wonder how marvelous it is in Makkah during hajj period..

As usual after the prayer, it wud definitely be a photo session..best2!then, went to class..how boring,i know!but we jst syaed until like 1..then skipped the histology lab n CLS class..(im soo sorry)..but wut to do..in raya mood meyn..hehe

Us frm Notts Uni wishing Salam Aidilfitri to all our family in Msia..sob3 ^^

thE taSte Of fiRst weEk of teRm

2008-09-28T23:01:00.004+01:00

God, Im already in Notts..wut's more,in 2nd yr!still can't believe it...it feels like yesterday i went to medical interview,worrying over offer n all...hurmm...that's how fast time flies..hope ive made the most out of last yr..did i?

We medics already had lectures on our FIRST DAY of term!yes, that was when everybody else in other courses still celebrating their arrival etc...but wut to do...i dnt mind either..coz i knw this course too well to complaint:p
My first week of term is unexpectedly busy..apart frm lectures,DR etc, i got some nms stuff to see through as well..n helping juniors where necessary n duty rota at the freshers fayre..sttling down in a new house also is taking time..but it was enjoyable indeed i figured..looking forward to the rest of my 2nd yr..courseworks seem quite a number...modules also seem tougher..but yeah,im in it so im up to it..

3 days more to aidilfitri!!:)

sO lonG, and gOodbyE

2008-09-17T19:02:00.005+01:00

My sweetheart,

You shower me warmth when I feel detached

You keep it cool when we’re in stifling mood

You know what I need.. You always do..

Whenever I came to you feeling down

You’ll embrace me tight, locking me from the outer world

See, you’re always there!

But sayang,

What did I give you in return?

My tantrum, my bad habits, my laziness, my nagging

You witnessed it all!

But hey!

I still love you

Does that count?

Owh yes,

I bought sweet present for you too, remember?

Unless some irresponsible fella snatch it from you,

You’ll wear it all the time!..very proudly

I know sometime I neglect you

Letting others to take care of you

But baby trust me,

I never disregard you!

What’s more abandoning you!

The moment has once again arrived

It's the time to bid farewell,

So long, and goodbye..

But I’ll return to you for sure

I swear!

Wherever I go,

How far we parted,

You can never be replaced

You..

The one and only..

My dearly lovely room..(^_^)

iT's sTill abOut vaCaTion..

2008-09-16T18:15:00.005+01:00

Enough to describe the trip isn't it? :p

**meynn the picture turns out blurr plak**

wHen the meRcy of bEing hEalthy is teSted

2008-09-16T10:46:00.006+01:00

I hav sooo many thingss i wanted to write coz it's been a few days since i last wrote in here..but one step at a time,no? :p (currently got hooked by dat song).

I caught a cold last sat n was feeling sooo awful-head like spinning gasing, skull like bursting out, limbs like being screwed n both sides of my nose congested like traffic jam kat KL!Only God knows!And i ws supposed to break-fast with che pah n tikamad on dat day :( but no harm. After a whole day of resting(or sleeping?) only cud i be 'alive' again the nxt day. Alhamdulillah im all better now, except 4 the stuffy nose.

Owh yeah, i just returned from my appointment with ENT doc again jst now to get the allergy test result. Here is wut they got:
1.Total serum IgE level is very low thus indicates a very low probability of an IgE-mediated allergy reaction.
2.And the spesific test for aeroallergens (house dust) shows a very mild positive reaction.
Apart frm that, im free frm any allergy!One thing im so relieved: yeay sume makanan leh tibai!hehee :p

So back to this house dust n mites thingy..erghh, where got a dust-free house?? then gotta live in a bubble la??something i hav to reluctantly accept with an open mind. Things happen with reasons..**trying 2 think positive**
The recommendations given to me includes encasing pillow n mattress with an anti-mite control barrier which is medically designed to prevent mites or other allergens to pass through it to reach one's body..n i was like..WOW!And the price?RM220..again i was like...WOWWOW! Fine..in seeking gud health 4 a gud cause, we r asked to diligently make an effort..so i bought it. Hope it helps. See how it goes 4 a year, if worse come to worse..im not sure if im considering surgery??Hurmm..

P.S; Owh yer, i wnted to write bout my vacation in Perhentian Island as well but nxt entry lah kot

Berbuka lebih 'uumph' dgn SeRunDing DaGing :)

2008-09-07T15:24:00.010+01:00

Wut's there with candy floss???it'll only giv us cavity! we Malaysian got our very own special meat floss!but not so gud 4 those with high blood pressure n heart probs..hehe

Serunding daging has always been my favorite dish 4 buka puasa n raya..the dining table'll look "empty" without it..hehe So this time, my mom has decided to make our own homemade serunding..I said to myself "Why trouble?Jln TAR bersepah..cn jst buy loh,easy!"That was jst becoz im a lazy bumpy u see :p But my mom insisted n i was like..ok2 fine, it'll be fun though..hehe Here's the super-duper easy recipe:

Ingredients:
2.5kg of beef (cut into small pieces)
2kg shallots (cut into thin slices)
coconut milk (about 3 biji kelapa)
ginger
chillies (blended)
salt to taste

Err..not to forget, u also need 2 prepare urself a taste of endurance n patience(^_^)

1)Boil the meat until tender. Recommended duration is about 5hrs.

2) Shred the meat into fine thin slices and set aside. NB:If u unfeignedly shred them with ur fingers like i did, with that amount of meat..it''ll probably take 3 weeks. Wut my dad did was smash/knock/whack the meat using this hammer-like kind of thing til it's flat n it'll be much3 easier to shred.

3) Heat up the wok. Combine the coconut milk n all the other ingredients.

4) Bring it to boil and then add in the shredded meat and some salt to taste.

5) Leave it boils until dry. NB: Stir the mixture well every now and then. ( Esp at the base of the wok so it won't stick or get burnt)

6) Serve n eat well!! :p

Natural hot springs or onsen

2008-09-06T17:08:00.010+01:00

Last August, me n my family went to Sungai Klah Hot Springs Park in Perak..Aunty Radiah n family were also coming with us..it's just a weekend-out..the place is very new and really far in the FELDA area. Generally, the place was quite impressive. But the first impression given by the staff wasn't that satisfactory i wud say.Why?Here it goes, we arrived at about 1100am, n it's understandable that we cudnt yet check-in. They said check-in starts at 2. So we went to this Pusat Pemuliharaan Haiwan (Seladang, burung, and xingt lagi satu binatang pe) to kill time. We went back at 2pm. But unfortunately, the room still wasn't ready coz the previous customer hadn't check-out yet. Other rooms are full..So fine, we waited. But it's been dragging on til 330pm...wth rite?They said they're still doing the room service.(Wut, so now not enuf staff?) My dad n aunty Radiah got real mad. Apalagi, kasi "advise" sikit la kat the staff at the check-in counter. Then finally near 4pm, we got our room keys.And guess wut now?It's a wrong key...we're so unfortunate or they're jst not efficient?Wuteverrrla..

Despite the not-so-fine services, the stay was enjoyable. Especially to the kids. They got this 2 big pools, 1-hot springs 2-springs water pool..the public hot spring pool is quite big with different depth..Wut a gud way of body n mind relaxation..some says it also helps to detoxify n gud 4 diabetics.We also rented a private jacuzzi. I love it!The park also have egg boiling area but have to bring our own eggs la. Apart from that, they also hav spa&massage, water reflexology etc. Seriously i wud recommend this place to all the urban peeps out there. Sometimes shifting our faculty of vision frm blocks n concretes to greenery feels very refreshing.

Map to Sg Klah Hot Spring Park. More info, jst google the place!

kegiatan x berfaedah

2008-09-03T10:49:00.004+01:00

In 3 weeks time, i'll be going back 2 notts...erghh!n now, im bored! got nothing in particular to write really..enjoying berpuasa in here, at home..n kegiatan paling x berfaedah in Ramadhan is doingg nothing which is wut im literally doing now..actually i got stuff to see through like sponsor 4 notts game etc...but still,boringg loh..nk keluar mls sungguh maka terdampar lah sy di rumah ini..well at least im enjoying my own company in my very own precious room b4 i fly off back 2 uk..kan3?!

the first day of puasa, i buke puasa in selayang..with the whole relatives present. very meriah, i like it very much.since it's the first yr of celebrating eid without my grandma, they plan 2 have it there and masak lemang together2 on the raya eve!how great!unfortunately, i'll be celebrating my 2nd eid in uk...how sad!even thinking bout it makes me wanna throw a fit!da naseb badan...isk3..sob3

yes, im pretty annoyed..cnt help it but to bottle up

Innalillah..

2008-08-27T17:26:00.010+01:00

Sedekahkan Al-Fathihah buat nenek saye, Allahyarhamah Ramlah bt Ujang yang baru sahaja pulang ke pangkuan Ilahi pada malam Isnin lalu di wad CCU Hospital Selayang...

AL-FATIHAH..

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Last Sunday after my family n i jst got back from a weekend trip, at around 10pm or so, my dad got a call from Kak Ija (my aunty) asking him to rush coming to Selayang n get Uwe(my nenek) to the hosp saying that Uwe cudn't breathe. By the time we arrived kat Slayang, it was already about 1030pm..Uwe ws unconscious with her face n lips were all so pale already. i tried to feel her pulse but there ws none..!i was so horrified!She was in the midst of having her dialysis when she fainted. So my dad took her to hosp Selayang right away..tp byk traffic lights la pulak..kacao btul..

10 mins later, we arrived at Slyg Hosp n she ws rushed to resuscitation area right away. It took 25 mins to regain her pulse. N it took them 3 times to resuscitate Uwe coz they kept losing her!:( after the 3rd time, the doc askd us if we still wnt them 2 resuscitate her if the pulse wsnt there again. wut the all 3 anaks agreed on : 1 last one..
Then after a few hours, the pulse was gone...again!and so, they resuscitated her..again..Alhamdulillah, they got her back..Lepas tu she ws transfered to CCU ward in a very critical condition, she was intubated n the heart was supported with drugs : dopamine, noradrenaline n one more i dnt remember..the chance of surviving was less than 50-50..n she already suffered a brain damage so she'll only be in coma even though the pulse is present.

I went home the next morning at 7 after having some breakfast kat cafe hosp. me n my dad planned to go back at around 12, but at 10 something..Kak Ija called ayah nangis2 n everything saying Uwe has gone.As panic as it is, dgn x mandi lg tu..we rushed pegi hosp, smpai2 they're alredi crying at the ward waiting area. Hanya Tuhan je yg tahu how it felt! i tried to gather some strength n went in..kissed her on the face..

The silly-and-not-funny-at-all part was when the hosp ppl said Uwe hadn't gone yet. Her pulse was still there. But Kak Ija n Pak Uda (my uncle) said this one Chinese girl doc told them Uwe has already gone..n we knew this only after all the jiran tetangga n sedara mara had been informed!Adoii laa...miscom di situuu...

Lepas bincang2, the family agreed on stopping her drug..n let her go peacefully..so lepas stopped the ubat2, we jst wait n see..baca apa2 yg patut untuk memudahkn pemergiannya, definitely we all x nk Uwe pergi tp seeing her condition..x mau menyeksa lagi, menunggu saat bertemu ajal..

948pm, Innalillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Raaji'un..

Death Cert

Top: ECG with 0 pulse rate

Actually i planned to spend the first few days of Ramadhan in Slayang with Uwe..but God loves her more than i do..Watching her left this world right in front of me leaves me a big blow of course, coz i spent most of my childhood in Slayang with her, i grew up under her care!followed by a big regret as well..for not spending more time with her lately..The last time was 2 weeks ago..But thnk you Allah for not having me 2 resit any paper so i cud be by Uwe's side at this crucial moment...I jst cnt imagine if i only hear her leaving me n the world frm afar..dat's even more heart breaking..

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat Allah dan ditempatkn di kalangan org2 yang dikasihi dan diredhai-Nya..Aminn

The last pic together....

code blue

2008-08-20T16:23:00.004+01:00

Genre: Drama, Medical
Film Date: July, 2008
Total Videos: 11
Japan Casts:
Aragaki Yui, Asari Yosuke, Higa Manami , Hiwatashi Shinji, Katsumura Masanobu, Kodama Kiyoshi , Ryo, Sugimoto Tetta, Terajima Susumu, Toda Erika, Yamashita Tomohisa, Yanagiba Toshiro, Zeny Kwok
Description:

The drama's full title is "Code Blue: Doctor Heli Kinkyu Kyumei." The concept is based on Japan's proposal for an emergency medical service using helicopters to quickly reach those in need. A special bill was passed in June 2007 that should foster widespread adoption of the system. Yamashita stars as a young doctor-in-training, working under the guidance of an experienced "flight doctor" (Toshiro Yanagiba). Some scenes will be filmed with a real helicopter, adding to the show's tension.

Ngehehee...seyes best citer nie..very inspiring..hero pwn ensem..^^

longgggG way 2 go..

2008-08-18T12:14:00.004+01:00

As cn be seen in my calender up there, i went 4 a pre-dep organized by IMAM..last yr i joined as the participant but this yr, as a faci..how fast time flies huh..as great as ever, i njoyed joining the progrm..it's gud when a bunch of med student cn meet up engaging our selves in our common interest..

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MEDCINE..how to get there?and how euphoric it is to be there?
The line of work isn't a joke, n the pathway isn't a leisure one..to be in a med skul, it's a bliss!but that's just the beginning..4get all the tip top previous score, be it SPM or IB..med skul is totally a DIFFERENT league...one who's in this KNOWS very well wut im talking about..

So let's make our calculation:

Undergraduate studies = 5 yrs (minus 1-since im done with my 1st yr alhamdulillah)
Housemanship = 2 yrs
Waiting 4 masters = 2 yrs minimum (during this time, might be posted to rural areas)
Postgrad studies = 4 yrs (doing ur specialty)
Subspecialist = 2/3 yrs (depending on the field)
Total = 16/15 yrs

So, do we really think in 15/16 years time..we wont encounter any 'badluck' or failure? Say i get married now,my child will even be done with PMR by d time i get my subspecialty cert!(well that's jst a comparison of how long the journey 2 become a full subspecialist is) Anything can happen within that 15/16 yrs time..IF any unwanted things ever happen at any point within that 15/16 yrs, will we be able to look back and say.."Alaa, kalaola aku study btul2 n tak main2..."or will we be able to face the present and say.."Ergh..kalao amik course lain kan dah lepak2 je skang.."or will we be able to foresee our future ahead and say.."Wutever happen,i'll go for it jugak!"

It's too unpredictable isn't it??..we can study as hard as we cn ever bear, but how cn we be sure of the outcome?Say in our anatomy or any theory paper, God knows how a lot it is the facts we have 2 memorize..wut if we get ill during the revision period but recover on the exam day???And say in our clinical exam, yes we've memorize all the theories n has mastered all the skills required but who knws wut kind of patient we may get?wut if the patient refuse to co-operate?SEE??

So..my very important point here is...in this bumpy pathway, only to GOD we shud submit ourselves to..Only Him cn make us healthy, only Him cn giv us good luck, only Him cn make we feel like flipping through the topics that will come out in the exams d nxt day..only HIM..Doa, Usaha n Tawakkal...With pure intention, may Allah make it smooth for us all...=)
i write this cz im scared.cz i care.cz i...i dnt knw

h.i.d.u.n.g

2008-07-22T05:51:00.004+01:00

After ages of procrastination,I finally got the chance to go n see ENT doc..So just now i went to Dato Harnam ENT Hospital at jalan Ipoh near Pusrawi..Consultation macam biasa laa, he asked n i answered..i told him my biggest concern is the congestion, and that i dnt think it's due to me allergic to pollen(sbb i still hav probs bile bukan pollination season pun)..and bla..bla..bla Here's the treatment plan dat he prepared for me:

1.X-ray
2.Allergy test
3.Medication
4.Immunisation (He said diz is rather unnecessary n expensive)
5.Surgery (Last resort-removing the inferior turbinate)

X-ray result

As shown above, the inferior turbinate is rather swollen..normal one shud be seen as black shadows meaning it's clear. im quite lucky die x spread so much to maxillary sinus..n nothing kat eyes n ears..The allergy test result will be out in one week time.And ubat2 nyer, i got an anti-histamine nasal spray with nil side effects (yeay!)..and other 2 tablets i cnt bring myself 2 remember it's weird name.Now about the price..isyh3 mahal nk mamfusss!allergy test oredi cost like RM395(padahal lab die sniri!)..consultation fee RM60 (wut daa??)n medicine i 4got how much but the total if im not mistaken is around RM500++...

Reminder 4 myself: Nnti jadi doctor jgn laa letak harga mahal2 sgt yer..sian kat org2 x mampu..esp consultation fee..gune air liur n a bit of knowledge je pun..hehehe