I want to be a doctor

After 5 yrs in med school, this is the time. 3 more weeks to final exam. **emotionless**

our weekly OSCE practice

Semoga usaha ini diberkatiNya & semoga urusan ini dipermudahkanNya insyaAllah..

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Realiti semasa

Salam wbt

Had a chance to attend the 'Divine Speech' - 3 days Quranic Arabic course by Bayyinah Institute last Christmas weekend in London. The course was delivered by Nouman Ali Khan. He's super famous weh! Such a great opportunity giving that he rarely delivers his course outside US. And...we bumped into him when we were having dinner at this one Indian restaurant. When he and his company were about to leave, we (about 10 of us) 'shyly' asked if it's ok to take picture and he replied, "My wife won't be too happy" (something like that). And we were like..."Awww..so sweet.." LOL such a girl!^^

Br Nouman Ali

Sisters area

Ok back to business. =P The course was undeniably amazing of course. Giving the political scenarios back home(or in any other parts of the world), I find this one really fascinating. It's truly true, nothing but the truth! In the quran, Allah revealed unfair tactics that people usually use to win an argument: 

1) Using threat of force in debate. Eg [21:68] - Instead of debating about the important issue i.e worshipping other than Allah, force of threat is used i.e the disbelievers put a threat to burn Abraham.

2) Character assassination. Eg [21:36]

وَإِذَا رَءَاكَ ٱلَّذِينَ ڪَفَرُوٓاْ إِن يَتَّخِذُونَكَ إِلَّا هُزُوًا أَهَـٰذَا ٱلَّذِى يَذۡڪُرُ ءَالِهَتَكُمۡ وَهُم بِذِڪۡرِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ هُمۡ ڪَـٰفِرُونَ 

And when those who disbelieve behold thee, they but choose thee out for mockery, (saying): Is this he who maketh mention of your gods? And they would deny all mention of the Beneficent (21:36)

 [43:52] - Character assassination made by Pharaoh towards Musa AS.

3) Stirring up emotional crowd. Eg [20:63-64]

4) Making ones feel guilty and question their own modesty or loyalty. Eg [21:52,53]

5) Strategically distracting questions

It sounds very familiar indeed. These are what we will encounter everyday. No choice but to be wise. heh. 

DISCLAIMER: i'm not an expert, this is purely one of the contents of the course. The course material can be found here.

Welcoming 2012 (^_^)

It's 1 January 2012. It's my parents' birthday!! Wishing the both you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY & a blessed year ahead!

My smile is their priority.
My day and night are their worries.
My success is their ambition.
My life is their strength. 
Never can I be able to return the same amount of tenderness. I pray to Allah;  

رَّبِّ ٱرۡحَمۡهُمَا كَمَا رَبَّيَانِى صَغِيرً۬ا

My Lord! Have mercy on them both as they did care for me when I was little (17:24)

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Everyone seems to be into the new year mode so to welcome this 2013, I wish everyone (including myself) all the best in becoming a better person who does more good deeds. And...let the improvement comes sincerely from our heart. It doesn't matter if in the end we can only improve one little aspect of our lives, because that is still an improvement! After all, trying and striving is better than doing nothing and remains in the status quo. Some hearts can drastically change, some hearts need time (2:74). Most importantly, it has got to be sincerely because of Him. As outlined Imam Ghazali, there are 3 stages (or types?my bad!) of sincerity. (Choose from the three, be on the top ladder i.e no. 3 or be all three! =p ) 

1) of a servant - ones who do good or abandon evil to avoid punishment from Allah

2) of a merchant - ones who do good because they want rewards from Allah and Jannah 

3) Mahbub - ones who do good because of their love for Allah

Start somewhere. And we'll get there :)

Allahu'alam. 

NOTE: 45 hari lagi nak final exam!!!!! buleh gilo den! =S

Manusia mudah lupa..

Forgive me Allah The Almighty 


There is no other God but You alone. He is the Living God, Almighty and I turn(repent) to Thee O God.


Glory to Allah. No creature is able to overcome His kudrah(power), He is Allah who rule the throne alone. He rules the Throne and the heaven with ease for the sake of His glory, all the faces who bow and bow to him .


God is enough for me the most greatest. thers nothing in my heart except Allah. Nur Muhammad sallallah
There is nothing else other than what Allah has revealed. 


There is no God but Allah. The king of the king. The Haq (the truth of reality) eternaly. Muhammad the Messenger of Allah, true and trusted the promises 


Forgive me Allah. Please accept our repentance. 

We repent to you Allah. We come back to you Allah. We regret for what we have done.

yellow is the new black

Hari ini dalam sejarah: 090711! Wonder how will BERSIH 2.0 be depicted in Sejarah text books for the later generation. Anyhow, i jst cnt help but want to make a post bout bersih. Getting its updates online, watching youtube videos and photos from facebook left me in awe and heartbroken as well! Proud of the msian who're not selfish-to think tht they shud jst live quietly, feed and raise their family 'well'. Sad with how the police handled the crowd!

Below are some of the photos i lifted from bersih 2.0 official facebook page. enjoyed reading some of the funny comments as well!lol

the guy in yellow and those two in the uniform are probably of the same age. but whats different eh?

the guy is clearly armless,why need 4 cops handling him? n why need to be so brutal? jst cudnt understand!

even a kid was arrested!

those ppl understand the 1Malaysia concept more than the one who introduced it

thank you nenek!

forget bout the apco thing a bit. but the picture surely speaks for itself. whats different is jst tht on the right, they're frm different religion. but on the left, theyre both muslim!

last but not least, my favorite picture of all..jeng..jeng..jeng..

if only there's bumblebee.....hihi^^

i think if it's not because of the useless roadblock, water canon and tear gas, the rally would have been very peaceful!!

P.S; baru rally nak mintak fair election je pun..bukan mintak duit or nak topple mereka!pelik..pelik

Women of Faith debate

Well it's not really a debate actually but more of a sharing sessions if u like.

Salam wbt,

Have been abandoning this blog for ages. A very bad habit of mine. Ok lupakan.

Well, apparently today is an International Women's Day and the Women's Network, a society under Notts uni student union organised a little forum featuring women from different faiths namely Christianity, Judaism, Islam and Sikh.

The forum started with each panelists giving a brief overview on how their faiths affect them and their daily lives. The first panel is a Christian, and i like how she reverse the question to; How can it (her faith) not affect me. Which i really really agree. Her faith gives her confidence and the contentment in life. She went on saying that she couldn't understand how can some people work their head off just to be rich coz she knows there's more to life than just earning big money. There's a purpose of why we're all here. And in term of confidence, she expressed that as long as she believes that God loves her and wants her to be there (on earth) for a reason..she doesn't have to crack her head off browsing through her wardrobe finding the shortest minis possible to impress others etc. Similarly with the other two panelists from Sikh and Judaism. The Jewish lady covers part of her hair(signs that they're married), and the Sikh lady wears turban. And they promote modest wear as well. And that they don't mind being 'different' from others or not engage in 'clubbing' or the social events alike. It's hard for them as well to say no to their friends but as they said, "I know what I'm doing, coz it(clubbing) doesn't bring me close to God so why should i do it?"

In my head i thought..."WOW, that is soo Islamic.." Of course, there are differences, but why fight over the differences when you can share the common interest?

So, the impression i get from the forum is, all faiths promote good.

How can faith not affect us?Right?This is how i view it;

Purpose of life

As we already know, as Muslim, our purpose of life is for Allah to be pleased with us and bless us with the ultimate aim of Jannah i.e heaven. He will be pleased with us and bless us if we're close to Him by doing good, and prevent evil. Having all the blessings in life like good education, wealth, health, jobs and family are all part of the means to reach the ultimate aim. We do things coz Allah asked us to do so, and we don't do things coz He asked us to avoid them. And that everything in this whole universe comes from Him and is His. We know we go off the track when:

1. We do things to impress and please other people instead of Him.

2. We study solely to get good grades so we can get better jobs

3. We dress to impress rather than to cover ourselves as He asked us to do so.

4. We love our money, our partner and our family more than we love Him and His messenger SAW.

5. We're more worried of other people's perception than whether He's pleased with us or not.

6. We think we're so happy and blissful coz we've got everything in life when we don't know if He'll be pleased enough with us to give that happiness again in the hereafter.

7. We think that we have a high status in the society coz we're more educated and forgetting that we're just His little servant.

8. We're proud of our achievements when it's Him who gives us that.

The list goes on and on..but at least we get the picture and insyaAllah we can relate it to ourselves.

Way of life

Islam, is our Deen. Which means,it is our way of life. So since it's part of us and our way of life, how can we separate our day to day living with our faith. It's all interlinked and connected. We cannot pray 5 times a/day and go clubbing as well. It doesn't seem right, does it? Since we have that purpose of life, so the way we live our lives has got to be towards realising that aim as well, isn't it so?

Natural disposition

Having a faith is all part of our natural instinct or disposition i believe. This reminds me of a friend of mine who said that her friend who's an Atheist also believe in at least 'something' though not God. Coz as a human being, i believe at least somewhere deep down in our heart/at the back of our mind know that we're belong to something 'superior'. We want something/somewhere to turn to, to refer to or to look up for. And that's exactly how Islam nurture us. And i like the close relationships one can have with their creator without any barrier i.e we can directly communicate to Him. We want to cry when we're sad and we want to whine and complain when we're not satisfied. So cry in remembrance of Him and complain to Him as He is the best listener and understands better. If we're stuck between two roads, ask Him the guidance and He'll show us the right path. If we want something very badly, ask Him and He'll grant us our prayers. And not to forget when we're so happy we want to share it with someone, we turn to Him and say Alhamdulillah. =D

No Compulsion

I'm very much against forcing others to do things they don't want to. Because good deeds will only be valuable in the eyes of Allah if we do it sincerely i.e without being forced into it. However, it's not the same as educating others and give good example with the hope of influencing them to do good as well. (And educating is also not the same as 'imposing' yah). This is because to be sincere, one gotta know what and why they're doing certain things. So if we just force others to do things that are alien to them, it is just meaningless to them. However on the other hand, refusing doing good deeds jst coz we're asked to do so by others or coz it's a rule is also not very good i think. Coz sometime, we might not understand why we're doing it initially but as we develop the good habit of doing good deeds, not only the unintentional good deeds are rewarded, but as we grow maturer, hopefully we might pick up some knowledge and began to understand the reasons behind it. (if u get what i mean?) So, know why we do things and also know why we refuse to do things. May Allah guide us along the way insyaAllah.

i am very very very lacking in every way, above is just what i feel and believe.

Allahua'alam.

PS; macam mana agaknye nk elak comment2 random org nk laku-kan products/websites diorg frm terrorizing my space?heh.

judgemental

No matter how smart/clever we are, we still have got no right to judge others.

Each and every one of us is different. In our own way. We're different because of different background, n different upbringing...everything is different! Do not think that the world must revolve around us just because we get a good education and come from a decent background. Even if we think someone does not conform to our idea of being a 'good' person, we still have got no right to judge him/her.

Don't let all of our (few) good deeds all this while go to waste just because we cannot control the little evil in our head. Yes we may have the advantage of looking 'good' in the eyes of many. And some might have few shortcomings that are like 'taboo' in our little world. But NO ONE is superior than the other. Making a change is part of our responsibility but in the process, do not judge. When we judge others, it means we're looking down on them, showing arrogance and superiority. And it can translate in our attitude and conversation. Seriously, it's not a nice sight. Coz it hurts.

Just a thought..because we might not realize it.

Allah knows best.