how to enjoy labwork for dummies

like me..eheh =p

n i dnt hav the answer either. so those who hav the manual pls do let me knw.

hurm..labwork 4 me is not tht bad..only if i dnt hav to do it all yr round la kn..coz kt lab, ppl jst do their own job..not talking to each othr pn..n wht more, im quite lampi when it comes to numbers. ..hence i neeeed that huge GDC of mine. owh yes the dilution calculation etc..my first time doing the 'real' situation calculation, i was like..blank. completely. i wonder wut ive been doing with my 7 IB chem n A1 spm chem.cikgu mintak maaf..^^

labwork=cooking kah?i dont think so..w'pun u hav the recipe for cooking n protocol manual for labwork, it's jst not the same kot. sbb when cooking, we cn campak2 stuff n jst make it edible. tp labwork, if we miss one thing or put the wrong solution, the cells die n project pn entah ke mana. so mayb baking suits better la.haha.

hadoiii

ya Allah besar sungguh ujianmu..

10 mins bus..15 mins walking..2 hrs of waiting..finally i got called in..

"there's nothing much we cn prescribe here.." sheesh!
still, i got a list of possibly 'useful' OTC meds frm her n a piece of advice too. at least im a bit relieved even though i still need an appointment at cripps.

btw, that ws less than 5 mins..!
then another 10 mins of walking..dropped by boots for the meds..then back home on leather... haha

half day is gone.

=(

p.s; im not whining, jst letting it out!

owh yes n one more thing, i found this frm blog hopping..

" Whenever we encounter a big problem,never say "Oh God, I have a big problem!"Instead say, "Hey problem, Ive got a BIG God!"...

adoi

coursework..............

coursework..............

coursework..............

the deadline for all 3 coursework is nxt week...........i cn do this!!cnt wait to get this over with..
erghh mayb notts medics r jst not used to having lots of coursework..that's y im like this..hehe

owh yes the may exam schedule is out. *hypoxia*!!
no gap at all for all 4 papers...revision week pn xde...camne nie..wuaaa!!feel like locking my self in my room the whole easter..!but hav bought the flight tickt to prague already..guess i wont hav a 'serene' trip this time around.

*collapse*

not gud enough?

u knw wut makes ppl feel so low? or the feeling tht some ppl hate the most? i think it's the thought or feeling of not good in anything we do. well yea in fact, i do feel it sometime. must say, it's an awful feeling. it really is. frm tht little feeling, ppl will feel, not worthless but mayb less worthy. but yea if we bring ourselves close to Allah and Quran, tht evil thoughts will jst go away and we'll soon realize how we're needed in the ummah. but the worse case, is when "individualism" is so much all around us, the eagerness of becoming the winner. are we not good enough if we lost? why wanna be the first so much? wut r we trying to prove? and to whom?but, does tht mean it's ok to be the lagging one?

u knw there are ppl who're really good at everything they do? some even hav almost evrythng in life..frm looks, to wealth, capabilities and perfect partners. they must be jack of all traits and master of everything too. but is tht really considered as evrything in life?or is it more to life?isn't tht jst too gud to be true? is it justifiable? did those ppl who excel in every single thing they lay their finger on work very hard diligently?or are they gifted? coz i too, wonder why cn't i excel in everything i do? did i not do my best and try hard enough?mayb yes.haha. but i believe, evryone has a different story of their lives. God is All Knowing. He gives more to those who're grateful. wut shud keep us going i think is faith. coz if we wanna reason evrything in life n question evrybody's fate..bole commit suicide kot! and the desire to excel will also keep us going..me too, jst like u, hav tht desire. n it's very strong too. at least in one thing, oh no actually two. mayb we cnt be narrow-minded n see "excellency" in a smaller scope or limited area. see it in a bigger picture, tht serves our purpose of life, then i tink there'll be lights at the end of the tunnel for us. may we work hard for it and may God makes it easy for us. Ameen.

p.s; i hav no idea frm where in the world did all these suddenly popped out of my head. but it's something useful to ponder upon tho.i think.

how's 1st week of sem 4?

err...awal-awal minggu lagi dah NGANTUK!hisyh...such not a gud start aite! (still quite sleepy while writing this...) well sometime it's unavoidable but i'll get my normal sleeping pattern back soon..heh

new modules 4 this sem includes:
FBN- neuroanat n neuroscience...like always, lots to memorize.
GBP- drugss...interesting jugakla, heard it's tough..n cudn't agree more kot..but nothing's easy-peasy in this world.
MOM- my optional module, very biochem in nature.

and some are continuation frm the previous yr/sem like:
PH- epidemiology...erghh i tink i hav to really struggle for this one.
CLS-everything that's end with -logy. jst add immuno/microb etc. n genetics too. berlambak wehh...
n biasalah the all yr round modules CS & PD- communication skill n professional development.

patience is a virtue..how long can we last?

Well, patience is a virtue. Yes we should admit that. And me too are trying my best to keep the emotional side of me from conquering my mind and later, my action. But how long can we last? Patience sometime has its own limit jugak. We're human after all. Trying to live with it, ignore it and deny it. How long can our weak heart stands that? Sometimes we need a break. We do have a choice to choose things we like and dislike. But objectivity does not always work. How long do we have to play the card? How long do we have to put up with keeping our composure right? How long more do we have to pull the string? Tired it is.

Patience. Patience. Patience..is always what keep us sane. Keep us balanced.
Easier said that done i know. Coz patience is always one-sided. Ignorance much. But to keep being as what we are now and to not spoiling the colour of the atmosphere, we BETTER be patient..

"....Sungguh Allah beserta dengan org2 yg sabar"

Hold back, and relax. Take a deep breath in...and out....then doze off!

p.s; Salahkan hormone.haha.

p.s.s; tiket air asia murah...nak balik msia skarang gak!!

haRi yG aGk pRoduCtive...!i lyKe...haha

ive got a day off today..xdela productive sgt sbenanye...but im quite satisfied la with how i spent my day today..hehehe
woke up quite late jugak...hehe ( i tried to stay up aftr subuh but to no avail..haha!)
then at 11ish went to library..stayed there with anis til 6pm!had lunch in hosp cafe..n my aim for the day achieved!i rarely do u knw..hehe of coz we had some breaks here n there for snacks, a lil bit of gossips..nyanyi2 sket..smyg n all kan..but overall..okla not bad

then at 6 we went to aerobic class in QMC. ive always loved aerobics!tiring yet so much fun! But wud be even better be if we can hav dancerobics like those back then in kmb..
Habis stretched segala muscle yg ada..!And most importantly, berpeluh!
Then after the class which ended at 7, we went back to the library 2 continue the 'unfinished' business..haha
Then i went home like at 9ish, did nothing but having my dinner then surfing the nett a bit then sleep!i shud have continued studying i know!but cannot tahan laa..sleepy2 head me

semoga iman dikuatkn pada lain2 hari utk tabah berdepan dgn buku..hehehe

yes it's autumn in my heart...:P

Kehkehkeh..pls don't be affected much by the misleading title..it jst suddenly popped outta my mind..n i luv the pic up there. taken when i was on my way to netball practise on sat in highfield. felt so gud to walk dwn the lane on that afternoon. the falling leaves seemed soo beautiful. Luckily there are still some leftover greeny leavy to freshen me up. And the weather was just nice for an outdoor activity esp strolling along some lakesides or something.

But not anymore i think..it's a bit colder now..but the leaves keep falling and a lot more trees are now "naked". The weather gets more n more depressing each day towards the winter. God i dnt like winter. People wrapped in black n grey..From top to toes! Colourful n flowery outfit will just look weird and doesn't seem to blend into the whole picture. No ones on the field n even on the streets sometime. It gets dark frm 4. For Muslims, Zuhur prayer gets really short and no Isha'(or Was it Magrib?cudn't recall laa..) Extremities got numb like almost every time they're exposed. And the gloomy lil cloudy accompanied by mrs windy makes everybody moody. (it rhymes!)..n most importantly...we'll prone to snacking n hibernating with almost a 100% guarantee of weight gain!hahaha..

But...looking 4wd to the winter hols..Plan to go to Barcelona n Madrid..haven't booked the plane ticket though..but insyaAllah la..main attraction there is definitely la....Zara!haha..(wut,u think im gonna say real madrid n barcelona stadium???)if only beckham is still in real madrid..huhu
After that...gotta get my heads down fully geared for the exam! Terus seram sjuk pk psl exam..haha

K till then,wslm.

ape-ape la labu...

i think twice b4 i wrote this entry..whether it's appropriate to hav it in here but after giving some thoughts, i tink i shud pour it out in here since this is my site..i cn write wutever i deem suitable to write..or wutever i feel like writing even..so here it goes!

im in my uni's msian society committee..jst now he had a meeting discussing bout our upcoming event i.e Deeparaya(i knw Diwali is like 3 weeks away) celebration n notts game..apparently the meeting time was kept changing b4 diz n has only been decided like last 2 days(or ws it yesterday i cudnt recall)..as a loyal n flexible member of the team(haha!)......it didn't even occur to me that that such trivial matter cud be a reason for an immediate resignation notice!
Fine!
The main reason given were;
1. She cnt stand the way all of us keep changing time for meeting (!!) -->she said we shud hav given a 3-4 days notice b4 changing meeting time(wut the H wey?)
2.Felt unvalued as a com members coz it has been twice dat she ws uninformed about some meetings n changing of time...(grrr..)
3. We hav meeting like sometime twice a week--->apparently she cnt giv her everything to diz soc since she's also the head of some othr BIG societies..(wuteverrrr)

Lame la weyy..!
1.The meeting time ws kept changing becoz 2 accomodate the other com member as well..we need everybody to be present for certain meetings..esp 4 NMG,dat's keep changing the time so everybody cud attend..wut 3-4 days notice??!it's emergency n urgent FGS!not evrything goes as planned...furthermore, jst nw ws the very first time she brought this up..if she ever felt uncomfortable with the way all of us plan or run our meeting..cudnt she jst let us knw earlier so we cud do something about it rather than jst walk(or run if dat's better) away!!The way i look at it..dat's sooo unprofessional n irresponsible!She cnt get it why the othr 6 of us cn get along with that style of handling things...gosh!it's her prob dat she cnt cope with that..eventhough she has othr big socs to run,but she has promised to commit during the election manifesto!if the othrs cn be flexible despite of all othr engagements..why cnt she??? pls3 dnt ever expect thingss 2 always go all as planned!
2.Why hav to expect special treatment of getting txt invitation to all meetings??we hav the YG..dat's where we discuss everything!it took forever to get her join the group n then why so quiet in there??never a single word frm her!It's a loss to the president n secretary then that they hav to always txt everybody to confirm attendance for evry single meeting..why wasting othr ppl's credit!(dat's so unprofessional??but dat's the fact sorry)it's in the constitution that unis email add is the official one to be used as means of communication??(Ppl,is that even relevant to be an excuse??!)all of us have agreed to set up the YG,n she said she read all of our emails in there but why still complaint bout not getting the meeting details when we've posted up evry single thing on the YG???And most importantly why bring it up just now n then resign!where goes the so called professionalism??Immediate notice of resignation u c...but still wut?participate in organising the NMG thank u partyn deeparaya?THANK U so much laa!! cn't attend nmg coz it falls on her birthday!let alone her contribution for the game!
3.This part really pissed me off..why cnt jst frankly tell us that she cnt giv 100% to nms?we're having meeting more than once in a week jst when there's a need for it..not becoz we love to meet each othr an talk bout nms!she think we like it so much??we definitely got othr work to do..but being in the com,dat's also mean giving our full commitment of getting the job done no matter how much time we ought to spend for it..we'll be meeting each othr more regularly when it's nearer to nmg..but why cnt she get it???it's not like every week we hav to hav meeting anyway..if we dnt hav any event in any particular month then there's no need to hav a meeting..but now,things r quite overwhelming..so deal with it,why blame us when she herself cnt cope with loads..

in the end, we jst said..."we respect ur decision"...wut else cn we do?in my opinion, a true, sincere n committed member won't mind soo much ovr the time they spent for the soc,n won't be very calculative ovr the constitution..cz wut's matter is happiness, joy n experience of contributing something for our own ppl..when we dnt put our heart in doing something,we'll jst kill our time with nothing in return..

ok i hav way tooo much drama for today...n that's it!im off!

OSCE vs Packing

I just got back from Cardiff (2 be exact 2 days ago)..now i need to sort of rush packing n at the same time practising osce..frankly speaking, i just started packing..too lazy to start it earlier..i know..screw me :( but never mind, multi-tasking is my cup of tea..:p

I'll be transferring my stuff to my future house on monday or tuesday..thank God the landlord allows us to place our stuff there over the summer without any charge..easy for us next term as well coz need not to do the transferring job twice. Having trouble to find a suitable box, hav tried the engineering building n qmc, but still need some more boxes..i dont wanna buy it frm the storage company as many ppl did cz i think it's a waste of money..go for the free stuff first lo!hehe :p

the almost-cleared shelf..only left with loan books frm d library

my baggage to be brought home :)

Sooo excited to get home!Alrite, need to focus on OSCE for the time being..GOD, guide us through th epath u've laid 4 us..

mengapakahh??

Alaaa!!
Nanti miss 2 theatres!!P Ramlee the Musical only until 14 june!!i'll be arriving at KLIA on th 14th at 5++pm...surely cant make it in time to Istana Budaya!!erghh!!

The next one, teater Maharaja..frm 21-22 june..wth???i'll be in aussie on that date..!!mengapakah???like there's no other suitable date!sdeyhh2...:(

Luckily before heading back to Msia on the 13th, I'll be watching LOTR the Musical in London Royal Theatre on the 12th..owh tak sabarnye!!

ok2,get my head back on the exam mode!!
"strive hard now to reap the promising future.."

tensi!tensi!tensi!

erghh benci laaa gini weyhh!
mengape!

i never felt this way in any other exam before this..as tired as i am now..wuaaa!!mayb the question 2morrow wont be as crap as the self assessment one..aminnnn..GOD, guide me through..make it easy for me..

almost done with sem 1!!

besides from being in bed, i spend most of my times on front of my comp but still too lazy too update this blog..my bad!

i just realized how fast time flies..im almost done with first sem yo!next week is winter break and right after is my exam..finger cross!can't wait for holiday, Duo-ying's gonna come over and i'll go to PMS in Loughborough then there's an Eid celebration before me heading to Turkey!!then Nadz's gonna come over and then want it or not, i really have to lock my self up to preapre for the forthcoming exams.So that's my holiday plans. But we human plans, only God grants.

well for this weekend, i didn't plan to go out since i think i better prepare a little bit before enjoying my holliday somewhere else.But just now, my foster bro n sis invited me for a luncd outside. They're my savior for today!!coz kinda boring being in the room the whole day yesterday so was hoping someone would ask me out or something.We went to a Pakistani restaurant somewhere in Sneinton(that was the name of the area if im not mistaken). The Roti Nan was fab!!and the mango lessi(juice) was sooo darn sedap k!!ergh,kenyang abes! tahnx loads to them!And now, im trying to avoid having dinner coz i can still feel the stuffiness of my stomach.well, half of it because im kinda lazy to cook today.hehe^^

omg!i made it!

don't be hoaxed by the title..but however,today is kinda achievement for me cz i jst cooked my dinner jst now..hehe no need for me to tell wut did i cook cz it's kinda embarassing cz it was jst a real simple dish but i make a big fuss out of it cz it ws my first time cooking all by myself..somehow need LOTSA improvement..:p practice makes perfect isn't it?hehe..

went to city centre earlier on d day..then frm the old market square me n put went to hyson green market asda..bought a lot of things for sure..thank God k.fisya was around n lent me a bag so i can put my overweight plastique bags with oil,whole grain etc inside..so darn heavy man!then to make it worse,the bus '50' dat we're supposed to get in wasn't around...might be bcoz if the heavy traffic..so unfortunately without wanting to put more burden on our foot + shoulder,me n put decided jst to take a cab..guess hw much was the fare????it was 9 pound!!but we got 1pound discount..doesnt make any different,does it?hoh..rugi besaaaar guee!!

orait..sleeping time..gotta wake up early 2morrow cz i plan 2 go to the carboot sale at 9..:)

alot more 2 xpect...

nothing much we had in lectures today..just an introduction about the early clinical development programme..surealot to expect frm me in d future..gambare!!i'l do my best!!
my GP tutor is Dr H Patel..sounds like a pakistani..im not sure when will i hav my first GP attachment but sure it'l be so much fun..ive been luking forward for this kind of thing since ages!

well im not fasting today.but stil i'l join anis at her place during break-fast hour today..she's lucky living with a bunch of medics senior..alot can she learn frm them..hurm nvm..i'l survive on my own..my way..insyaAllah..

strucked by loneliness...erkk

in the spur of the night...i was all of a sudden strucked by the loneliness..nothing wrong with the day..the sky's perfect..full of gleaming stars..the wheather's perfect..offering a refreshing breeze..but something's wrong with me..is it the mood swing from pms?hahhh..

the class started off today with just a simple revision lecture "concept of the cell"..while waiting for the lecture to begin,someting about this lonelier thing came to my thought..ahh..homesick i guess..i hate this lonesome!frens r there..but true frens?bf perhaps?hoh..i think i just think tooo much that makes all those weird stuff popped into my mind..n strucked me like it's all crucial..but somehow it does make a significant impact on ones life right?companion,company,frens,partner n all...:(

23 kg!~

i LOVE my purpink(purple+pink) luggage!...hehe the current weight of my luggage is 23 kg!

hopefully they can tolerate n permit the 23 kgs..

i tink i've placed inside everything urgent..hopefully nothing's missing..

from apparels..to toiletries..to stationaries..to rempah ratus even!

so i'l be at klia at about 700..gather at C17 after break-fast..check-in n all then take-off at about 1140pm..then after 13 hrs flight,reaches heathrow london..safe journey insyaAllah..amin:)

huagrhh!!

arghh!!i just went back from kedah..my mom's paksu passed away yesterday..imagine we travelled about 4-5 hours to kulim..n overnite there for just 1 nite..pity u my father..:p well, speaking of my realtives in kedah, that's from my mom's side..my big family tree is quite complicated and so i dont knw much bout it..i only know n recognise the close one..3 of my aunts are in uk,so i guess i'l hav no prob of finding free open house during diz coming raya...(is there such paid open house btw??)..2 in kent, n 1 in london..hopefully they'l accept me as their guest of "honour"!hehe..

intan n mun r leaving today..hurm..nervous counting down til my turn!huhu..still lotsa things to settle beforehand..gotta be quick just in case anyhting unexpected appears on last minute preapration..

hurm..ok,i'l update on later..jaaa~

adoii!

hah!my btn is tommorow...and i caught a cold today!!arghh!!very uncomfortable laa with this selsema...wuaaa!!hurm...hopefully i'get well soon :(

so lazee bumpee

i planned to go back to college yesterday actually, but too lazy to get outta my room..hav to be really strict to my self though at home or otherwise, i won't be touching books at all..thinking of going back tonite, but not sure yet..making decision frm a number of choices is really TOUGH for me..wut's more if i hav a better choice in mind..like stays home for another day or going back to college..arghh!it's just 2 weeks more before i can stay home as much as i want but still...erghh..
of course i prefer to be home coz it makes me feel free to study without any guilt of not studying for a minute and without feeling disturbed (although there's quite some distractions at home)..if i were to be in college at this time, surely i 'bengang' with my rummie who almost every second on the phone talking to her bf!!!annoying and irritating!not becoz im jelous or wut, it's disturbing especially when she's talking bout PERSONAL INTIMATE matter..huh! i don't wanna hurt anybody,dat's y i don't directly say that to her but indrectly i did do something that shows my uneasiness..she's just too ignorance to understand i guess..hurm..people..people..